077. nobody said it was easy...nobody said it would be so hard.
so yes, too much has happened and i just do not have the extensive vocabulary that is in order to explain it all. and somehow i think that you (whoever's reading this) would not enjoy a paragraph of pure swears and me being quite pissed off. so i'll talk about some happy things.
1.) i bought law and order svu season 5 on dvd; this excites me greatly because now my fetish with christopher meloni / elliot stabler can resume in an orderly fashion.
2.) i bought 'without a trace' season 1 on dvd; this also excites me greatly and now i'm planning on having a fetish with one of the more attractive cast members on that show as well.
3.) i bough a multi-pack of orbit gum. this includes 15 packages, 5 3 packs of every flavor of orbit gum. need i go on about why this is fabulous?
4.) tonight i was indulged by my mother to get taco bell. since i truly believe that taco bell is possibly one of the best fast food restaurant chains ever, it's easy to see why i get excited over this. the fact that it is also the scummiest does not play a part in my excitement.
5.) i did not take a nap today. to the untrained eye, this may seem as though you're dealing with a very grumpy sam right now. au contrair. i am actually excited to go to sleep with the mere looming thought of hopefully dreamless, wakeless and a beautiful night's sleep.
6.) i just made a list contrasting the things i was excited about, but it seemed to have made me more depressed because i do realize that these are all insignificant features in a futile attempt to try and make myself feel better. it was almost working. i think.
and yes, i realize that i do have trouble forming and holding and just having relationships at all. this is not unknown to me and i'm going to go ruin my dreamless sleep by dwelling upon this fact for about... 7 hours. goody.
goodnight.
1.) i bought law and order svu season 5 on dvd; this excites me greatly because now my fetish with christopher meloni / elliot stabler can resume in an orderly fashion.
2.) i bought 'without a trace' season 1 on dvd; this also excites me greatly and now i'm planning on having a fetish with one of the more attractive cast members on that show as well.
3.) i bough a multi-pack of orbit gum. this includes 15 packages, 5 3 packs of every flavor of orbit gum. need i go on about why this is fabulous?
4.) tonight i was indulged by my mother to get taco bell. since i truly believe that taco bell is possibly one of the best fast food restaurant chains ever, it's easy to see why i get excited over this. the fact that it is also the scummiest does not play a part in my excitement.
5.) i did not take a nap today. to the untrained eye, this may seem as though you're dealing with a very grumpy sam right now. au contrair. i am actually excited to go to sleep with the mere looming thought of hopefully dreamless, wakeless and a beautiful night's sleep.
6.) i just made a list contrasting the things i was excited about, but it seemed to have made me more depressed because i do realize that these are all insignificant features in a futile attempt to try and make myself feel better. it was almost working. i think.
and yes, i realize that i do have trouble forming and holding and just having relationships at all. this is not unknown to me and i'm going to go ruin my dreamless sleep by dwelling upon this fact for about... 7 hours. goody.
goodnight.