why oh why

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so since ive been back in modesto everyone in this lovely home has been on the god forsakin atkins diet. i had no idea one could consume so much flesh in one day and not turn into a cow or a pig. its quite disturbing. so every morning i wake up to the smell of baccon simmering in the kitchen. but you cant really tell where its cooking because the whole house stinks of it. i almost puked this morning. i was peacefully sleeping in the living room. when the sound of marissa moving around woke me up. then the smell of the piggies hit me and i went running to my room and practically inhaled my insence. i held my breath and walked around the house waving my arm in the air trying to mask the god awful smell. and i feel bad because my mom gets headaches from insence some times. but ya know ive put up with this animal smell for a long time and i feel i deserve to smell flowers when i breathe instead of the smell of cooking flesh when im trying to start my day.

so that is my current situation. im surrounded my meat 24 7 and im doing my best to remain control of my tummy. because it isnt happy right now.