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So I just said goody-bye to Josh about an hour ago. I thought I did pretty good today, I only cried once and it wasn't even when he was leaving. I cried when we were at my house early this morning. Josh came over at like 8 and jumped on me to wake me up. I love getting suprise wake up calls from Josh.
The remainder of the day was pretty up beat. We went to lunch with Grandpa jack and Grandma Sandi lol. That was funny as always. They are so cute, they love Josh so much and they always want to know everything like they are afraid they are going to be out of the loop. After tha I went to Josh's house and his Mom finished taking care of some issues going on with something. We joked around all afternoon and just acted stupid as always. It was fun. Those are going to be the times that i miss the most, just being able to hang out whenever. We are like next door neighbors practically. Today will also be Josh's first time riding on an airplane. I was like so suprised that he had never been on one. He'll be back on the weekend of the 11th for two days I think. Then I think he's coming back mid-October. It's pretty much like once a month which is really good. I mean going from seeing Joshy everyday to once a month is hard enough. I totally just skipped school today. I also wanna say to Leah that everything is going to be ok. It'll all work out in the end. It jjust wan't meant to be and that's ok. I know it hurts now and that you feel like your life is crashing down on you because of EVERYthing but we can get through all this together! I love you!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Can someone fill me in on what happened in Mr.Johnstons's class? That wold be awesome! I guess I have to go, the animals are getting hungry.
Add: Here's the essay i wrote for his class...... I was really in a writing mood
The Actress
That girl, you’ve got to love her. She makes you crazy, but you still love her. She turns her back on you, yet you still love her. Why? How can anyone make you feel so bad yet when you’re without them you feel as if you are incomplete?
It’s like a cage for your heart and your mind and only she has the key. This girl, she finds so much power in holding that key. It even makes her glad, with that conniving she has plotting her every next move to draw you in closer. Still you wonder what she is doing. Still you think about what she is wearing, and you still sit there with the tears cascading drearily down your cheek thinking of how you can win her back. What will it take for you to realize that there was no love, just obsession, obsession that was created by how she wore her hair and how she made you feel when she said “I really care”.
It was al a lie, every last word of it. She’s nothing but an actress, playing in your favorite show. It’s all so addicting, the tears, the laughter, the feeling that you get when you think that someone cares. The pain isn’t going to go away, it’s going to make more tears fall. It’s going to make you more addicted. It’s going to blind you of what you think is there. Your perception of her love for you is skewed, this is all thanks to her fake-ness. Let us all bow down to the actress, she’s succeeded, she has won it all.
The remainder of the day was pretty up beat. We went to lunch with Grandpa jack and Grandma Sandi lol. That was funny as always. They are so cute, they love Josh so much and they always want to know everything like they are afraid they are going to be out of the loop. After tha I went to Josh's house and his Mom finished taking care of some issues going on with something. We joked around all afternoon and just acted stupid as always. It was fun. Those are going to be the times that i miss the most, just being able to hang out whenever. We are like next door neighbors practically. Today will also be Josh's first time riding on an airplane. I was like so suprised that he had never been on one. He'll be back on the weekend of the 11th for two days I think. Then I think he's coming back mid-October. It's pretty much like once a month which is really good. I mean going from seeing Joshy everyday to once a month is hard enough. I totally just skipped school today. I also wanna say to Leah that everything is going to be ok. It'll all work out in the end. It jjust wan't meant to be and that's ok. I know it hurts now and that you feel like your life is crashing down on you because of EVERYthing but we can get through all this together! I love you!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Can someone fill me in on what happened in Mr.Johnstons's class? That wold be awesome! I guess I have to go, the animals are getting hungry.
Add: Here's the essay i wrote for his class...... I was really in a writing mood
The Actress
That girl, you’ve got to love her. She makes you crazy, but you still love her. She turns her back on you, yet you still love her. Why? How can anyone make you feel so bad yet when you’re without them you feel as if you are incomplete?
It’s like a cage for your heart and your mind and only she has the key. This girl, she finds so much power in holding that key. It even makes her glad, with that conniving she has plotting her every next move to draw you in closer. Still you wonder what she is doing. Still you think about what she is wearing, and you still sit there with the tears cascading drearily down your cheek thinking of how you can win her back. What will it take for you to realize that there was no love, just obsession, obsession that was created by how she wore her hair and how she made you feel when she said “I really care”.
It was al a lie, every last word of it. She’s nothing but an actress, playing in your favorite show. It’s all so addicting, the tears, the laughter, the feeling that you get when you think that someone cares. The pain isn’t going to go away, it’s going to make more tears fall. It’s going to make you more addicted. It’s going to blind you of what you think is there. Your perception of her love for you is skewed, this is all thanks to her fake-ness. Let us all bow down to the actress, she’s succeeded, she has won it all.