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GAH!! yeah...something really got to me last week, it almost made me cry. i was really hurt. i doubt that that person knows how i feel. i get that i don't matter very much to them, but grrrr... but let's not get into that. i guess i shouldn't care so much about stuff, i mean, there are so many people out there that suffer much more than i do. have you ever induced headaches? sometimes my head hurts from thinking of things that upsets me. i hate that so much.
you guys out there that have people to listen to you are so lucky. i don't know if i already mentioned this, but i don't think i've ever had a best friend, or even a close group of friends to talk to. sometimes i think i'm afraid to tell people stuff cuz i might get so emotional i'll break down and cry and end up scaring them away.
yesterday i was so mad at a certain english teacher. i got a B- in the class. i don't like that grade, but i didn't want to see the teacher either. i ended up asking him about it anyways. he said that i got 78% which is a high C, but he raised it to a B. so he's trying to be "nice"? i was also missing two 10 point assignments (cuz i was on fieldtrips those days, but i didn't know about them, i swear, he randomly picks the worst days to do work. i guess it was wrong of me to assume that we wouldn't do any work. that must also be my fault that HE CAN'T TEACH), but i can't figure out how that'd give me a C. and it's not like i can prove anything, so i don't really know what i can do. GRR:angry:... he made me feel so angry. i walked out of the room to get to my next class. i was holding some books , and i really wanted to throw something, but it was nothing from english class. i was about to get my "heart of darkness" out of my backpack to throw it down the stairs, but i was late for class. i knew i shouldn't have talked to him. jerkoff. i was hekka angry second period, so i took it out by ripping newspaper. and later i had to see him again. ugghh. cuz i forgot to ask him to sign my field trip thing. and he had to say to me, nest time make sure you check up to make sure you dont miss any work. aslekj fweoa ARRGH! wow...that just made it even worse. you know how sometimes you're angry and you want to break everything around you, that's how i felt.
you guys out there that have people to listen to you are so lucky. i don't know if i already mentioned this, but i don't think i've ever had a best friend, or even a close group of friends to talk to. sometimes i think i'm afraid to tell people stuff cuz i might get so emotional i'll break down and cry and end up scaring them away.
yesterday i was so mad at a certain english teacher. i got a B- in the class. i don't like that grade, but i didn't want to see the teacher either. i ended up asking him about it anyways. he said that i got 78% which is a high C, but he raised it to a B. so he's trying to be "nice"? i was also missing two 10 point assignments (cuz i was on fieldtrips those days, but i didn't know about them, i swear, he randomly picks the worst days to do work. i guess it was wrong of me to assume that we wouldn't do any work. that must also be my fault that HE CAN'T TEACH), but i can't figure out how that'd give me a C. and it's not like i can prove anything, so i don't really know what i can do. GRR:angry:... he made me feel so angry. i walked out of the room to get to my next class. i was holding some books , and i really wanted to throw something, but it was nothing from english class. i was about to get my "heart of darkness" out of my backpack to throw it down the stairs, but i was late for class. i knew i shouldn't have talked to him. jerkoff. i was hekka angry second period, so i took it out by ripping newspaper. and later i had to see him again. ugghh. cuz i forgot to ask him to sign my field trip thing. and he had to say to me, nest time make sure you check up to make sure you dont miss any work. aslekj fweoa ARRGH! wow...that just made it even worse. you know how sometimes you're angry and you want to break everything around you, that's how i felt.