Broke
broke up with my girl last night...went to work early...just got home from the bar...a few drinks later, I'm regreting my choice even tho its for the best....
....now I'm sitting her crying...like a lame-o.....I'm fucked up...hahaha a few back handed compliments later, about how I'm big but cute.....doesn't help much..
and really I just wanna be alone always....cuz this feeling is all too familar....
how fucked up is it to end things with someone, but still be sad about it?
just want this person to be happy, I don't make them happy and I won't change to make them happy sooo....thats it.
thought we'd be together....could c a life with them....I guess that was just not real....
right now I'm so sad...and I feel so dumb...
but I miss her smell...touch and kiss....and her voice....hearing her smile...seeing her smile....damn I was sprung....but not when u try to change me, or try to act like I'm trying to do things to hurt u when u know I'm not........
i guess its over....
its easy for ppl to tell me thats whats best, but they don't have my heart....
....now I'm sitting her crying...like a lame-o.....I'm fucked up...hahaha a few back handed compliments later, about how I'm big but cute.....doesn't help much..
and really I just wanna be alone always....cuz this feeling is all too familar....
how fucked up is it to end things with someone, but still be sad about it?
just want this person to be happy, I don't make them happy and I won't change to make them happy sooo....thats it.
thought we'd be together....could c a life with them....I guess that was just not real....
right now I'm so sad...and I feel so dumb...
but I miss her smell...touch and kiss....and her voice....hearing her smile...seeing her smile....damn I was sprung....but not when u try to change me, or try to act like I'm trying to do things to hurt u when u know I'm not........
i guess its over....
its easy for ppl to tell me thats whats best, but they don't have my heart....