Retraction
so tonite my bball practice was supposed to be 7:30-9...
well i was wrong and i looked at my friend leah's away message and it sed
"bball practice 6-7:30 yesssssssss"
^^^^ yeah when i look at that, it was like 6:15...OH CRAP! yeah...i was late for practice.
i get there we're all throwing freethrows and depending on how many we don't make is how many suicides we run...UCK! yeah. so we run 4 suicides and then shoot 10 freethrows after that...coach dooz was like, we're having a team meeting. it was about me. about the last entry i wrote. he read it. my coaches and team were concerned. i wanted to die. my insides got ripped out and i wanted to explode but i kept my cool. i love coach doozi, coach lori, coach bill, charlotte, lauren, amy, taylor, michelle, emily, britney, justine, maria, leah and dianna. yep that's my team. i love them and i realize now that we are a family i had NO clue i guess...how much they needed me and loved me. yeah. i feel really low and bad and mad and sad and it ryhmes. <--haha...alright no more lauffing.
ugh no words can describe how sry i am. i never meant to hurt anyone's feelings and i hate my mom. she sed things that were not true and i believed her. i mean what she did was low. she scratched my face because i called her a liar. who was i suppost to believe?! this is so hard.
-i guess i wanted attention?! maybe i didn't, i don't think so. no i didn't. i'm like sure. but now that i have it...i don't like it. i'm just gonna keep to myself now. i think i'd like that a whole better. if i did that, i wouldn't be in the situation that i am in rite now.
this is why i'm a making this journal a friends only.
ugh...i'm so sry.
(i mean how cheesy, i've never kryed in my whole life and then in the middle of the court when we were having our team meeting...tears come...what a baby!<--i'm sry for krying...and i'm sry for accusing something of somebody when i should of stuck with my gut instinct and believed that. i should of never have doubted it. really...i kid you not. i am soooo sry...from the bottom of my heart!)
well i was wrong and i looked at my friend leah's away message and it sed
"bball practice 6-7:30 yesssssssss"
^^^^ yeah when i look at that, it was like 6:15...OH CRAP! yeah...i was late for practice.
i get there we're all throwing freethrows and depending on how many we don't make is how many suicides we run...UCK! yeah. so we run 4 suicides and then shoot 10 freethrows after that...coach dooz was like, we're having a team meeting. it was about me. about the last entry i wrote. he read it. my coaches and team were concerned. i wanted to die. my insides got ripped out and i wanted to explode but i kept my cool. i love coach doozi, coach lori, coach bill, charlotte, lauren, amy, taylor, michelle, emily, britney, justine, maria, leah and dianna. yep that's my team. i love them and i realize now that we are a family i had NO clue i guess...how much they needed me and loved me. yeah. i feel really low and bad and mad and sad and it ryhmes. <--haha...alright no more lauffing.
ugh no words can describe how sry i am. i never meant to hurt anyone's feelings and i hate my mom. she sed things that were not true and i believed her. i mean what she did was low. she scratched my face because i called her a liar. who was i suppost to believe?! this is so hard.
-i guess i wanted attention?! maybe i didn't, i don't think so. no i didn't. i'm like sure. but now that i have it...i don't like it. i'm just gonna keep to myself now. i think i'd like that a whole better. if i did that, i wouldn't be in the situation that i am in rite now.
this is why i'm a making this journal a friends only.
ugh...i'm so sry.
(i mean how cheesy, i've never kryed in my whole life and then in the middle of the court when we were having our team meeting...tears come...what a baby!<--i'm sry for krying...and i'm sry for accusing something of somebody when i should of stuck with my gut instinct and believed that. i should of never have doubted it. really...i kid you not. i am soooo sry...from the bottom of my heart!)