han gil korean methodist church...
so i went to my home church today. i was sad. i haven't gone to my church in years...i was...i don't know. my church brought back good memories. our church was so big when it was formed. we were like one big family and we all knew each other. the elderly sat together...the moms and dads...the teenagers...and the kids...and after going today, we only had like 50 people at our church. i remembered each and every person there and they remembered me also. all the grandmas and grandpas remembered me...it was so emotional and overwhelming. everyone is just getting so old. all of them were saying "you look so old" "you're growing up" "i rememebered you when you were a little kid." i didn't know what to say, but smile...the kids were so little when i left my church. i remembered them being little babies and 3 and 4...and now they're all grown up. i'm glad that some of them remembered me. that made me happy inside. the elementary kids are now in middle school...the middle school kids are now in high school. some of them are graduating and are about to go to college...when did we get so old all of a sudden. it seemed like yesterday when we were all at our old church just seeing each other and saying hi and having fun. and now here we are...at a broken church...i'm so mad. i always thought our church would last forever...not just as a church, but as a family. i'm mad at myself...some of these kids looked up to us when we were there. i failed as a brother to these kids. i wanted to watch them grow up and say to them when i was old "you were so little and now you're all grown up..." and now i won't be able to do that. the kids were reading verses out of the bible in korean during our service and they were so good. irene and suzie are all grown up now and they played the violin and cello wonderfully. timothy and kevin are still cute. i'm glad they remembered me. i enjoyed looking for eggs with them. i'm happy i saw the grandmas and grandpas. they were glad that my sister and i came back. it was nice going into service my FAMILY again...