My Final Entry
Im not sure what I have to say, I have a million and one speeches bottled up in me, but I feel if I loosen the cork they will all spill out and my purpose for writing this will be just a stain on my nice wood floors; So I'll keep it simple.
If Im sure of something, it's that Im not really sure of anything. I don't know what I really want, if I want anything at all, that is. If there is at least one thing I know, its that I am tired of trying to be someone Im not.
I am not a nice guy, I am not your friend, I do not want your sympathy, I do not need your love, I do not care for a hug or any meaningless sign of affection, I do not insist on you talking to me about subjects that do not interest me in the slightest, I do not feel like I deserve half of what I get from people, I do not feel any obligation to do anything for anyone based on prior friendships and any other aquiantances, I do not expect you to read this and take it to heart, I do not expect things to go back to the way they were, I do not want to help you out if your in trouble, I do not want you to try to console or forgive me, I do not want you in my life, I do not want you in my dreams, I do not want to have to worry about you getting hurt, I do not want to reconsider writing this, I do not want to have to be the one to laugh or make you smile if your down, I do not want you to ask me if something is wrong, I do not want you to have to go out of your way to avoid me, I do not care if anything is mispelled, I........
Im tired, Im I have nothing left to say, this is my final entry, Im going to go self-destruct now.
If Im sure of something, it's that Im not really sure of anything. I don't know what I really want, if I want anything at all, that is. If there is at least one thing I know, its that I am tired of trying to be someone Im not.
I am not a nice guy, I am not your friend, I do not want your sympathy, I do not need your love, I do not care for a hug or any meaningless sign of affection, I do not insist on you talking to me about subjects that do not interest me in the slightest, I do not feel like I deserve half of what I get from people, I do not feel any obligation to do anything for anyone based on prior friendships and any other aquiantances, I do not expect you to read this and take it to heart, I do not expect things to go back to the way they were, I do not want to help you out if your in trouble, I do not want you to try to console or forgive me, I do not want you in my life, I do not want you in my dreams, I do not want to have to worry about you getting hurt, I do not want to reconsider writing this, I do not want to have to be the one to laugh or make you smile if your down, I do not want you to ask me if something is wrong, I do not want you to have to go out of your way to avoid me, I do not care if anything is mispelled, I........
Im tired, Im I have nothing left to say, this is my final entry, Im going to go self-destruct now.