life still is sad 4 me
things still havent gotten much better from my last entry. today we had a scrimmagfe which we played ov and kicked there asses. i even got to play guard and scores me some points lol. but yeah then i had to babysit and all i did there was sit in the pool and relax.. The david situation thing i think is over. declared tonight when i have never cried that hard in front of people.. Have you ever liked someone so much it kills to think about them? and everytime you do you cry.. well thats what im going through cept tonight i got back from babysitting and showed up at ashleys house thinking it was gonna be us girls nate ans jeremy. yeah NO ONE told me he would be there.. and when i got there i felt so hurt and betrade just becaise no one told me he was gonna be there. i knew i was gonna get upset tonight i just knew it. and long behold when i talked to him things didnt go to well and i got upset and really low on myself thinging some things i hate thinking about.. BEING ALONE... AND NOT LOVED BY SOMEONE WHO I LIKE!! i dont know maybe its me.
if i could make ne wish right now it owuld be.. to make things the same as when we hung out at he beginning of the summer where all i could do is smile and i would wish we were dating... but i dont think this is going to happen.. i guess all good things have to come to an end and my dream is squashes. if you have ne comments or ideas for me please tell me .. ill do ne thing to get him back , or w.e i would call it. hes the one and only guy i care about right now.. im just being honest. well ttul. thanks for everythung ash jamie bre jesss jennie and drea at the game i know you care about me ,i love you all,, you too E.. ( erika) and Jerska lol stafford i love you baby.. thanks for that kiss haha.
<3 darceee kara ........................never give up on your dreams