chuck/castiel (dean/castiel) | You're the dark room he'll always remember
YOU'RE THE DARK ROOM HE'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER
chuck/castiel, implied dean/castiel. pg-13. spoilers for 5.04, the end; drug abuse, character death. ~4,570.
(c) title from you have a face carved of stone by cesare pavese
a/n: for thevinegarworks on the most glorious occassion of celebrating her birth, which was well over two months ago, but hey! i did it :) *gropes* ( Read more... )
chuck/castiel, implied dean/castiel. pg-13. spoilers for 5.04, the end; drug abuse, character death. ~4,570.
(c) title from you have a face carved of stone by cesare pavese
a/n: for thevinegarworks on the most glorious occassion of celebrating her birth, which was well over two months ago, but hey! i did it :) *gropes* ( Read more... )
Chuck does (plans it in four-step rhythm, the story he'll tell himself because of it, he needs to hear it like it's all make-believe: you, he tells himself, you carry him back to the truck, tell him shut up shut up I'm driving, he's crying out again; carry him up the hill, carry him up the wet grass, carry him up the stairs, to the bed; no one's come back, no one knows, they will; pull down the bottles, whatever comes down into your open hands first, it'll work, and feed it to him quick, wait for his eyes to roll, to lay down, hands resting on the back of your neck; lock him in his own room, leave him, back against the wall, slide down, head in your hands, you can't think).
I cried here, man, legit cried. I read this whole thing twice over throughout the past two days, just letting it sink in and savoring it. It's visceral and sharp and wow. The repeating elements - flying, not praying, coffins, crosses, colors, twine - gave it this sinking feeling of almost-routine, and...
Ffffff.
You've robbed me of words yet again. Thank you, so much, for writing this. I ADORE IT, AND YOU, AND CHUCK. BUT MOSTLY YOU. <33333
Reply
Reply
Leave a comment