day 94
i don't know what's going on anymore. i haven't slept well in weeks. i can't concentrate on anything. which really sucks right now, seeing as papers are due soon. in general, i just don't have the drive or desire to do much of anything. it's starting to affect my relationships with other people, and i can see myself trying to shut people out of my life. or at the very least, i have noticed my trying to avoid conversations just because i don't feel like dealing with people.
i've battled depression off and on for years. since middle school. but i haven't been in a frame of mind like this since i don't know when, and quite frankly, it worries me. probably even scares me. i'm ashamed to tell people, which is funny, because i'm blogging it. but i figure most people don't even read lj anymore, so to the three of you who read this, thanks.
i'm planning on talking to a guy at church. i need help, because i cannot keep going like this. but part of me feels like that's just one more thing that i'll have to deal with.
it's days like this where i wish Christ would hurry up and come back, because i don't know how much more strength i have. i know statements like that tend to freak people out, but don't worry. i know my Lord is strong enough to get me through this. but right now, i just feel so stuck in the mire, that it's all i can do just to keep going.
zooey deschanel said it well: "old habits die hard when you've got a sentimental heart." ugh.
i've battled depression off and on for years. since middle school. but i haven't been in a frame of mind like this since i don't know when, and quite frankly, it worries me. probably even scares me. i'm ashamed to tell people, which is funny, because i'm blogging it. but i figure most people don't even read lj anymore, so to the three of you who read this, thanks.
i'm planning on talking to a guy at church. i need help, because i cannot keep going like this. but part of me feels like that's just one more thing that i'll have to deal with.
it's days like this where i wish Christ would hurry up and come back, because i don't know how much more strength i have. i know statements like that tend to freak people out, but don't worry. i know my Lord is strong enough to get me through this. but right now, i just feel so stuck in the mire, that it's all i can do just to keep going.
zooey deschanel said it well: "old habits die hard when you've got a sentimental heart." ugh.