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i defocus too much.
and consequently run myself into the ground.
when i should be sleeping sometimes my nerves keep me awake and anxious all night instead. so i stay out late doing as much as i can to make myself reallyreally tired. but sometimes it doesn't work. take tonight, for instance.
it is a challenge not to self-medicate. i'm trying to remind myself that God is the only real solution. sadly, he is often my last resort. i suppose that's why he allows us to be broken down, so that he can put us back together the right way.
and consequently run myself into the ground.
when i should be sleeping sometimes my nerves keep me awake and anxious all night instead. so i stay out late doing as much as i can to make myself reallyreally tired. but sometimes it doesn't work. take tonight, for instance.
it is a challenge not to self-medicate. i'm trying to remind myself that God is the only real solution. sadly, he is often my last resort. i suppose that's why he allows us to be broken down, so that he can put us back together the right way.