life.
1.
rest in peace mr. kurt vonnegut. you influenced my life in a very positive way through your writings and brutal honesty about life.
2.
my life is pretty nuts right now. i got arrested last week for felony possession of cannabis and intent to sell within 1000 feet of a convenient store. i need a lawyer but cannot afford one. i am hoping to utilize a public defender and get a fair deal with the pigs. fair, in my terms, would be probation and community service. i fear jail time though people tell me that is not probable since this is my first run in with the law involving drugs.
unfortunately a friend was dragged into this as well and her life is changing a bit as well. i like to think that one day i will look back on all this and laugh, and i probably will, but for now, i am very stressed and worried. my main concern is that i will lose the great place i have found to live and will be forced to live with my family again. perhaps i should be grateful for having the option, and i am, but i really hope i do not have to return after almost 3 years of independence.
if anything, this ordeal has increased my love and appreciation for my friends and family. i have always had problems asking for help, but right now i need every little bit i can get.
3.
my hours just got cut at work, from 40 to 35. not a huge loss, but i really need every dollar i can get right now (in case i do use a lawyer, somehow). i am waiting to hear back regarding a second job at a "nice" club @ the Hard Rock. it could be a considerable amount of money, under the table, without the greedy hands of the government meddling.
4.
i have had no time or chance to work on any music in almost a month now. my computer died and was brought back to life by means of a new brain (hard drive). however, it's second brain is not being read by the motherboard and all of my samples and arrangements are on there. i am slowly growing more insane with each passing day. i find myself day dreaming (and night dreaming) of sequencing, chords, notes, melodies, the feeling of low frequencies and combination of oscillisation, the clicking and pointing and creating of glorious noise. i fear that i will never return to music and will never, ever get to release anything, despite the fact that i am/was finally getting to the point of having high enough quality of sound product to do so.
i hope that all of you out there are happy with whatever you are doing. our universes are parallel yet infinitely distant. i can feel you but i cannot hear or see you. taste is not an option.
rest in peace mr. kurt vonnegut. you influenced my life in a very positive way through your writings and brutal honesty about life.
2.
my life is pretty nuts right now. i got arrested last week for felony possession of cannabis and intent to sell within 1000 feet of a convenient store. i need a lawyer but cannot afford one. i am hoping to utilize a public defender and get a fair deal with the pigs. fair, in my terms, would be probation and community service. i fear jail time though people tell me that is not probable since this is my first run in with the law involving drugs.
unfortunately a friend was dragged into this as well and her life is changing a bit as well. i like to think that one day i will look back on all this and laugh, and i probably will, but for now, i am very stressed and worried. my main concern is that i will lose the great place i have found to live and will be forced to live with my family again. perhaps i should be grateful for having the option, and i am, but i really hope i do not have to return after almost 3 years of independence.
if anything, this ordeal has increased my love and appreciation for my friends and family. i have always had problems asking for help, but right now i need every little bit i can get.
3.
my hours just got cut at work, from 40 to 35. not a huge loss, but i really need every dollar i can get right now (in case i do use a lawyer, somehow). i am waiting to hear back regarding a second job at a "nice" club @ the Hard Rock. it could be a considerable amount of money, under the table, without the greedy hands of the government meddling.
4.
i have had no time or chance to work on any music in almost a month now. my computer died and was brought back to life by means of a new brain (hard drive). however, it's second brain is not being read by the motherboard and all of my samples and arrangements are on there. i am slowly growing more insane with each passing day. i find myself day dreaming (and night dreaming) of sequencing, chords, notes, melodies, the feeling of low frequencies and combination of oscillisation, the clicking and pointing and creating of glorious noise. i fear that i will never return to music and will never, ever get to release anything, despite the fact that i am/was finally getting to the point of having high enough quality of sound product to do so.
i hope that all of you out there are happy with whatever you are doing. our universes are parallel yet infinitely distant. i can feel you but i cannot hear or see you. taste is not an option.