A more private place to post
I'm not putting this on my social media because I'm not looking to put all of my business out there. Not yet anyway. with that said I do want to document all of this. This isn't a "secret" and I don't particularly care of it bleeds over to FB or whatever, but I'm just not personally ready to take it there yet.
I went into the emergency room on Tues morning after dealing with some pain for a bit. This pain had grown to the point that I just couldn't really handle it anymore. It was abdominal and I was thinking it was likely a gall bladder thing.
I had actually visit my primary care physician a week prior over this but he only wanted to give me referrals, which were scheduled but still wouldn't have happened yet at this point.
Anyway I'm still at the hospital and will be through the weekend I have been diagnosed with Neuroendocrine cancer and had my first round of chemo, quickly, today. I have two more days of it before I can go home. This cancer started in the colon and has spread to the liver, which isn't a particularly good thing.
That said....I'm OK. Really. I don't what will happen or how long I will live been....I'm strangely fine. I think I had some rough moments in the first couple of days but my medical team has been so focused that I feel at ease. Even to the extent that if things don't end well, I know that have performed admirably.
Except they aren't in my insurance network and I'm kind of scared I won't get to continue treatment with them beyond check--out. They are working on that but my insurance has the pesky position as both a government agency AND a pesky insurance company. I'm sure I'll get great care wherever I go. I just really hope it's here.
I haven't told my family yet. I think that maybe I should wait until after Mother's day. I don't people to associate the day with this in the future. Silly? Yes..I'm sure it is.
Plus I'm OK and I'm thinking they won't be, at least initially, which will make things a bit harder/put me in a less OK place. I'm not suppressing emotion. I'm just in acceptance and find it better to remain positive.
I went into the emergency room on Tues morning after dealing with some pain for a bit. This pain had grown to the point that I just couldn't really handle it anymore. It was abdominal and I was thinking it was likely a gall bladder thing.
I had actually visit my primary care physician a week prior over this but he only wanted to give me referrals, which were scheduled but still wouldn't have happened yet at this point.
Anyway I'm still at the hospital and will be through the weekend I have been diagnosed with Neuroendocrine cancer and had my first round of chemo, quickly, today. I have two more days of it before I can go home. This cancer started in the colon and has spread to the liver, which isn't a particularly good thing.
That said....I'm OK. Really. I don't what will happen or how long I will live been....I'm strangely fine. I think I had some rough moments in the first couple of days but my medical team has been so focused that I feel at ease. Even to the extent that if things don't end well, I know that have performed admirably.
Except they aren't in my insurance network and I'm kind of scared I won't get to continue treatment with them beyond check--out. They are working on that but my insurance has the pesky position as both a government agency AND a pesky insurance company. I'm sure I'll get great care wherever I go. I just really hope it's here.
I haven't told my family yet. I think that maybe I should wait until after Mother's day. I don't people to associate the day with this in the future. Silly? Yes..I'm sure it is.
Plus I'm OK and I'm thinking they won't be, at least initially, which will make things a bit harder/put me in a less OK place. I'm not suppressing emotion. I'm just in acceptance and find it better to remain positive.