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i am learning that i am more okay than i think i am. i am learning that i am still being provided for as much as i have always been. i am learning that it usually takes some self-perceived near disaster for me to relearn that.
i am learning to continue to be thankful for small mercies. that even simple whispered "help me"s are heard and answered. i am learning a lot, but mostly that the most important things still aren't going to be found in books. and neither are answers.
i am learning that steps of faith are important. that considering things with the utmost rationality is too. that God still has things covered. that He makes sense, in the end. and that He often surprises me with that truth.
i am learning that the most patient husband ever is Jesus Christ. and that i have to make a concerted effort to like his bride, the church. i am learning that she has many faces, and that that is not necessarily a bad thing? i am learning that i've got to try to get past those faces to her heart, but that it's increasingly difficult for me to assume one of those faces [in order to do so?].
i am continuing to be intrigued by the postmodern emergent church. i am loving brian mclaren's writings. i am wishing such a church could exist in the south. i am reliving the yearning-for-a-change-and-clarity feeling that made me want to travel to the pacific northwest after graduation. i am still wondering where i belong (not geographically).
i am learning that ambition is okay as long as it is balanced with humility. i am learning that God is more than willing to create humiliating experiences when i need them, but that He will also see me through. i am learning to cling to that hope, that knowledge that i am more okay than i think i am.
i am learning to continue to be thankful for small mercies. that even simple whispered "help me"s are heard and answered. i am learning a lot, but mostly that the most important things still aren't going to be found in books. and neither are answers.
i am learning that steps of faith are important. that considering things with the utmost rationality is too. that God still has things covered. that He makes sense, in the end. and that He often surprises me with that truth.
i am learning that the most patient husband ever is Jesus Christ. and that i have to make a concerted effort to like his bride, the church. i am learning that she has many faces, and that that is not necessarily a bad thing? i am learning that i've got to try to get past those faces to her heart, but that it's increasingly difficult for me to assume one of those faces [in order to do so?].
i am continuing to be intrigued by the postmodern emergent church. i am loving brian mclaren's writings. i am wishing such a church could exist in the south. i am reliving the yearning-for-a-change-and-clarity feeling that made me want to travel to the pacific northwest after graduation. i am still wondering where i belong (not geographically).
i am learning that ambition is okay as long as it is balanced with humility. i am learning that God is more than willing to create humiliating experiences when i need them, but that He will also see me through. i am learning to cling to that hope, that knowledge that i am more okay than i think i am.