Sing To Me The Song - of the stars
Well, it is official. School is a joke. I could not go for probably 2 weeks and not be behind. It has gotten so boring and predictable that I am practically falling asleep in my chair every single period. Today I found my looking at the clock thinking of all the things I would rather be doing and eventually it turned into the amount of time I have wasted crumbled up in a desk and chair for the last however many years I have been in a public school. We can pick up our caps and gowns this Thursday/Friday which was like a little ray of light , shimmer of gold , twinkle of silver that yeah - graduation does exist and eventually it will bite us in the ass. I , for one , will not be wishing for the younger years to be back. I will miss everyone and the memories but never ask to go through the homework , stress , drama and other unpleasent things all over again. Go figure. High school is one of those things you visit once and then leave it be.
As for the job search - it sucks. No one is hiring right now and I don't know why. I really need the money especially with Dan. He always wants to pay for everything we do and I want to pay for him too and as of right now I have only been able to split the cost. Does this mean we should go to McDonalds so I can pay the full tab for both of us? Nah, it just reenforces the fact that I need to be hired - now. I won't buy my boyfriend fast food...not after how he treats me. I will work at McDonalds if needed though. So America , here I am , let me on your work force...I don't want to be a good working citizen , I want money...ya know what motivates the world (especially our country) and determines decisions of life and death for many. Welcome to our country - enjoy our lack of morals. Guess that is another topic in its self.
I went to the mall to visit Dan on his break. I mean - I haven't seen him since Monday and it feels like an eternity...go figure. I wasn't going to like anyone anymore...I didn't want to get involved or care to be crushed again by someone. I wasn't going to let myself and then Dan came and I fell apart. Today was a week that we have been going out officially and it has been one of the best weeks ever. I feel like we have known eachother forever...maybe we have in some way. Today we had our pictures taken in one of those little photo booth things in the mall....they came out so cute...I let him keep the pictures. He muttered something about doing something special with them for me , I didn't quite catch all of it so maybe that will be another surprise he has planned for me on top of the one he already has been giving me hints about that is a ways away he said...damn , I am so impatient. I am so scared of caring again and at the same time I love it. I just think about him all the time though and when I am going to see him next or spend the night with him...everything. haha oh goodness. I get myself head over heels...but it is ok...because we are both right side up to eachother. hmm that was good.
I haven't really felt so attached to someone before so quickly...like we actually brought up the idea of moving in together over the summer...who does that ? I don't any other time it would be like...slow down...but like we both feel so comfortable with that idea and he doesn't mind talking about the future and that is amazing to me. I don't know...I must be the luckiest guy ever even though he insists that he is. i hope this lasts forever...I don't see it ending.
. I'm not use to this treatment...being talked to like this....being care about like this .
there's a chance we could make it now , we'll be rocking till the sun comes down , i believe in a thing called love
love = what should make the world go 'round.
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