agh!
I've been so stressed lately. HOSA contest was this weekend. I didn't place high enough to go on to state. I don't know what happened, I knew my stuff. I did good on my written test on Friday, but then I got to my skilled test yesterday and I got my scenario and I just froze. I knew what to do, but I froze. I was so mad at myself. I was pretty sad, but Garrett cheered me up, plus I'm kind of relieved now.
Anyway, I was sad, plus I had only seen him once this week, so John and I went out last night. And because I had gotten up at 5:00 to compete in Fredricksburg and went to bed at 12:30 this morning, I fell asleep before I could set my alarm and woke up at 9:19. Considering I'm usually at the church at 9:20 because the kids start showing up at 9:30 I put on the clothes I wore last night, brush my hair and my teeth and rushed to church. Luckily John had woken up early this morning and wasn't late as well, because we had two new kids show up early. Then I had to go and babysat at 11:45.
I've also got BOA meetings like all the time and Michael was kind enough to schedule ours at 7:15 before school rather than after school. That's annoying. And considering that only two people read this, and y'all are both in my BOA group, then you already know that.
John lost his job. That's no good, considering he was barely going to be able to pay his bills this month anyway. And he's decided that he's going to join the air force. He went yesterday and talked to the recruiter. I'm not sure yet how I feel about this. Of course I've always thought it would be cool to be a military nurse, but I never thought I could do it. John tells me I can. I think I believe him. Now don't think that I'm saying this just because he's joining, and I know that's what you are thinking, because I know you both. I'm simply thinking about it, because he believes in me and I didn't believe in myself. I don't know what to think.
Anyway, I was sad, plus I had only seen him once this week, so John and I went out last night. And because I had gotten up at 5:00 to compete in Fredricksburg and went to bed at 12:30 this morning, I fell asleep before I could set my alarm and woke up at 9:19. Considering I'm usually at the church at 9:20 because the kids start showing up at 9:30 I put on the clothes I wore last night, brush my hair and my teeth and rushed to church. Luckily John had woken up early this morning and wasn't late as well, because we had two new kids show up early. Then I had to go and babysat at 11:45.
I've also got BOA meetings like all the time and Michael was kind enough to schedule ours at 7:15 before school rather than after school. That's annoying. And considering that only two people read this, and y'all are both in my BOA group, then you already know that.
John lost his job. That's no good, considering he was barely going to be able to pay his bills this month anyway. And he's decided that he's going to join the air force. He went yesterday and talked to the recruiter. I'm not sure yet how I feel about this. Of course I've always thought it would be cool to be a military nurse, but I never thought I could do it. John tells me I can. I think I believe him. Now don't think that I'm saying this just because he's joining, and I know that's what you are thinking, because I know you both. I'm simply thinking about it, because he believes in me and I didn't believe in myself. I don't know what to think.