the beginning

[somebodys_muse]

everyone has
                       an addiction 
                       a vice
                       a monster

it may be 
                                   great 
                                            or small 
                                   legit
                                            or illegal

it may take you
                                             to the highest 
                                                                      of places 
                                                                      or the depths 
                                                                      of your psyche

or it may be
                                                                  innocent fun

it may stay the same
                                            your obsession for life
                                                       or it may grow
                                                                        change
                                                                        evolve

but one thing remains constant
                 we're all searching
                                                    for that high
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i remember the days
                                     of being high on life
                                     when good 
                                                          friends 
                                                                       and great
                                                                                         times
                                                                                                    were all i needed
                                                                                                                                    to take the edge off

reality

but that was before
                                   i met my monster 
                       before 
                                   sex
                                   college
                                   drugs
                       before i met
                       Nicholas Farmer

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i'll always remember
                                     my first glimpse of him
                                     the first time our eyes met
                                                                                    over the balcony rail
beer in 
             one hand
cigarette
             in the other
soft hair
              in front of hazel eyes
                                          tinged red from the milky smoke
                                                                                                    of good s. florida green

definately
                  not
                        my
                             type

wanna come in and have a beer?
             i'm only 18
                     so?

my head said 
                        no
my legs said
                       yes
               walking toward the door
               allured by
                                 the monsters
                                                          inside
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