lookie lookie here!
i am sick and tired of my family. tired of living here. sick of talking to them. tired of pretending to listen and look happy or entertained.
sick of hearing their guilt trips. Tired of myself for still needing them. Sick of myself for still relying heavily on financial support. I am tired of having feelings and thoughts. can my brain turn off please? can i freeze myself and wake up in 5 yrs? that would be rad. I think i saw a csi episode once about that concept. gosh, i am truly on my last straw here. THE LAST ONE.
ive had a ridiculously, terribly, sucky, hard, hard, and over-the-top emotionally crazy past few weeks.
i miss Jane so much. already, i miss her sooo much. it hurts so bad for how much i miss her. :(
she knows me better than anyone else on earth. seriously.
Thus far, i do not like being 25 yrs old.
1. first bday ever, that actually SOUNDS old.
2. i have nothing ot show for my twentyfrickinfive years.
3.i live @ home.
4.i have no college degree.
5. i have no job.
6. i am still not allowed to get a job.
7. which means i am still "disabled".
8. i have little to no energy.
9. i have little to no motivation to be with people.
10. i am a grown up child. Just a big, tall, 25 yr old little girl with a broken body, a period, acne scars and a driver license.
when my mother was 25 she already had both ME and TYLER.
weird.
i am super duper in love with law and order. Since forever and always.
sick of hearing their guilt trips. Tired of myself for still needing them. Sick of myself for still relying heavily on financial support. I am tired of having feelings and thoughts. can my brain turn off please? can i freeze myself and wake up in 5 yrs? that would be rad. I think i saw a csi episode once about that concept. gosh, i am truly on my last straw here. THE LAST ONE.
ive had a ridiculously, terribly, sucky, hard, hard, and over-the-top emotionally crazy past few weeks.
i miss Jane so much. already, i miss her sooo much. it hurts so bad for how much i miss her. :(
she knows me better than anyone else on earth. seriously.
Thus far, i do not like being 25 yrs old.
1. first bday ever, that actually SOUNDS old.
2. i have nothing ot show for my twentyfrickinfive years.
3.i live @ home.
4.i have no college degree.
5. i have no job.
6. i am still not allowed to get a job.
7. which means i am still "disabled".
8. i have little to no energy.
9. i have little to no motivation to be with people.
10. i am a grown up child. Just a big, tall, 25 yr old little girl with a broken body, a period, acne scars and a driver license.
when my mother was 25 she already had both ME and TYLER.
weird.
i am super duper in love with law and order. Since forever and always.