f*ck f*ck f*ck
thats all i can say right now, things arent to good. There is just too much stuff with band. It sucks, i stand up for what i believe in, and i get all this shit thrown at me. Luckly things didnt end up like most other people who stand up for what they believe in, otherwise i would be dead. I mean honestly what is wrong with me putting religion infront of band. This is crap the whole process is crap, i think that Dr.C should be fierd and never hierd again. Sure he's a good director but he just can't deal with teens. This next part im posting because i want everyone to hear my side of the story. Im not saying who its from but it might be self obvious. This perosn has probably told everyone their side of everything, and i think that there are so many false rumors going on and it sucks so this is just some of the stuff that has gone on. So this is what someone sent me and my responses to it, that i got shot down for.
I've been meaning to talk to you for a long time. I'm sorry about the email about Bingo. I'm also sorry I've been hard to be around for a while. Here's what’s going on....
I've been having a hard time being your friend recently. There's a lot about you I like, like your desire to help people. I really value that about you.
First of all, you have a lot of things wrong, but I'm don’t know if I should try and give you the right answers because A) say they are wrong B)make more assumptions C) Just blame them on me not wanting to do marching band
But...
Your treatment of Will finally pushed me over. All band season you treated him like crap. There is a VERY good reason that he was section leader. He did a better job than you did. Fine, I understand that, but I'm not the only one who didn’t like him, just because he was good in YOUR eyes or Dr. C’s doesn’t mean parts of the section have to like him. He got first chair for a reason, too. I'm sorry you had to be under someone you obviously don't respect, but I expected better of you. You didn't respect him on the field, yes I did, I did want he wanted, every punishment, every suggestion besides being a water slave to everyone in the section, that’s the only thing I refused to do because I told him I didn’t want to step out of practice. You didn't invite him to stuff everything low brass did he was invited to. Nothing says I have to invite him to my own stuff, this last incident with the trick-or-treating. I thought he knew, because when I was telling Dan he was right there, and I herd him say “I can’t come”, and you complained about him behind his back. What’s wrong with that, should we have talked to him in person… WE DID and nothing happened, so now after saying these to me are you going to harp on everyone else who complained about him behind his back. I’m pretty sure you have done this to me so should I be getting on your case about it. Or you have complained about *** or *** or **** and a lot of other people…. What’s the big deal about it? All this to a good leader. … Like I said in you mind…..
This isn't about band, really. Or I liking Will better than you or anything like that.
I also got tired of your excuses. When we got together and talked about attendance, nothing really changed. I do believe I came every practice after that besides from my religious holidays…. So what didn’t change you came. You sat on the sidelines more often than you actually marched.
You dared to read a quote about going the extra mile to low brass. And I don't think you really recognize the irony in this.
The best part of band, to me, is that feeling after a killer performance, knowing you did everything you could possibly do. I know you think you felt this so now you know what I think…, but I wonder why you were well enough to march at every competition, but injured enough to sit on the sidelines. The only way I was able to be in the performances was because I wasn’t in practice, the reasons why I sat out was because I was taking advice from Fox, I'm sorry you don’t like the fact that I injured myself, or don’t want to believe it. If I was faking it all, why aren’t I working that muscle in WTRN class, and why am I doing PT on it? I didn’t like sitting out, but I marched when ever possible, I was even told by Will “the good leader” to sit out so yeah keep thinking what you want.
I don't know if writing this will be like hitting a brick wall or if you'll actually hear me. Fact is, you could easily make excuses to not listen here, too. I'm out to get you because you're Jewish do you realize what you just said, or you can't pay attention because you hurt your hamstring.
I hope you have a chance to really look at yourself, and wonder why you need to get away so bad. Excuses don't help you in the long run. Your right, but I don’t believe that I have given you an excuse all this year. I have given you reasons, and whether or not you decide to accept and believe my reason makes an excuse. If you don’t think my pulled hamstring isn't a good enough reason, you call it an excuse and say it’s my fault. As it appears so far this year you have not liked my reasons, so you simply label them as excuses. If I really didn’t want to march this season, I would have quit, I had a lot of opportunities to, but I'm in it for me, I enjoy it, and I have friends who I wouldn’t want to let down, but I also know there are people in this band that I wouldn’t care if I let them down… I'm sorry if you don’t like what I have said, but right now its how I feel, I'm tired of it all.
The blue is me, the black is the other person