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I'm so stressed - and worried - and unhappy...
and yet... I'm still having fun...I'm still enjoying my new friends and learning...
so... sometimes I'm laughing and just having a good time and I think - I have everything in the world to be worried about right now, what am I doing? But what CAN I do?
My roomie's so great - what would I do if I had gotten stuck with a freak as a roommate? We cleaned the living shit out of our room yesterday and it was soo pretty!
Today one of the SR MT students taught a dance workshop to learn original choreography from West Side Story - so that if you ever want to audition for a production of the show yada yada... you've got a leg up. It was awesome - taught too fast for me to really do too good of a job but still - I'm so glad I went - I can't WAIT for his Chorus Line workshop. Cause that show is on my to-do list - dancer or not. Well. I'll be a dancer by the time I do it. Wherever that may be. I'm on my way. Or at least I think so. That's not to sound conceited - that's to sound "believe in myself"-ish.
Glad I went to bible study thingy today - was going to bail but I just can't say no to people when they're persistant. Also ended up going to hip hop and got Amber and Melissa there until they decided they would bail :( Oh well - always fun to try new things - I guess. Speaking of - I'm going rock climbing with Amber tomorrow YAY! I love love love the gym - my favorite way to escape from the world...and that used to be reading and coffee at the bookstore but ... I can't afford the coffee part... at all. lol. Although it's not really...funny. But it will be someday so... I'm looking towards the future.
Uhm so this fraternity hip hop show thing that I'm doing has turned out to be really friggin cool. It's nice to have a new group of friends - we're having HipHop/Wine/Laguna night on Monday and we're gonna make shirts w/our names and group name so we can wear them to hip hop class and feel hott. hehe :)
Hmmmm. I've felt sick to my stomach for ... oh, about a week now. It's fun, really, try it, live a little. I'm rambling.
Bethany's awesome - Dar's awesome - Adrienne's awesome - I apparently only attract stalkers... which isn't exactly awesome lol.
Oh well. I went downtown to hear this band with our MT students in it, play last weekend and had a great (sober~!~) time. This guy who'd been talking to me online (found me on facebook I suppose...) forever and ever ended up giving me a ride b/c I always find out when we're going out like 10 minutes before everyone leaves and so far people have been nice and have given me a ride but I HATE (!!!) asking and ... I always do so I can have a life, ya know, and people have been so nice so far, but I missed the bandwagon this time and Mack was like YOU HAVE TO GO and I was pissed cuz I didn't think there was a way but this guy kept saying I'll take you I'll take you and he's a grad student so he's older and I had NEVER met him although he kept telling me he'd seen me at so many different events we'd been at (I was like well why don't ya say hi?? lol) so finally I gave in and let him give me a ride cuz he knows Sara and Mack and all sorts of people and he's in one of hte shows and I had a good time with him - he's not someone I'd ever date but he's certainly someone I would love to be friends with - but therein lies the problem - he's always asking me to meet up with him and blah blah and I wouldnt' mind to at all... but I'm pretty sure eventually he'll want those "meet ups" to be dates and that... I"m not down with. Not to mention too much age difference when there are swarms of fellers my age around... not that I've found anyone but I guess I've only been here a month. Anyway.
I digress - downtown was fun fun fun. And then the next night I went with Amber and Mack to Amber's guy friends apt and we were having fun (us girls) and playing games and drinking and some of the guys had never really drank before (wtf? ah!) so TWO of them got FRIGGIN WASTED LIKE MAD and it ended up with us taking care of people so drunk and puking that we almost took one to the hospital - as in had him in the car and ready to go ... oy.
And I can't remember Sunday, although I know I did something... all a blur...
The weekend before there was so much drama... and parties and tshirt day and ... blah blah
And now THIS ... Me and Mack feel like these two certain guys who we really like being friends with just... are not our friends anymore - out of the blue kinda... it's so weird - I just feel weird around them and I don't know if I'm creating that atmosphere of if there's somethign they're holding against us or if it's joint or if it's two seperate issues for both of them b/c I know one of them told he he thought I hated his guts... and I told him I didn't... and I thought it sounded like "Fresh start time let's be friends" but... so far he hasn't talked to me since then... I dunno... like... I love them both - I felt like they were ignoring us today! We partied with them like every other weekend before this past one so... so weird.
Anyway - I love the JR's - I feel that they're so 'big brother/big sister' towards me and it's nice. Nice, nice. Ah yes and I saw Proposals last week. It was very good - a cute cute show.
I'm a little nervous about starting rehearsal for mine b/c it's kind of... i don't know... artsy... Proposals, Niel Simon, I love those types of shows... all straight forward, blah blah ... but who am I kidding this is awesome b/c it'll be a new challenge. Yes. Just don't blink, or you might miss me onstage. :) Eh, it's not THAT small.
I'm rambling. Spilling my guts. Why does LJ's audience need to know any of that? Makes me feel better to write for an audience? I guess so.
So... I really don't want to go to ballet tomorrow. I really enjoyed it in the beginning and now I just... don't want to work that hard. Does that make me lazy? Or stressed and tired and a bit ill from the stress and tiredness?
You know what Brittney and I were saying to eachother (via facebook) - it is gonna be mad crazy fun when we're all home for Christmas and we all go out. FOR MY BIRTHDAY! hehehehehehe. Jk - we'll go out for something though. Maybe my birthday?
Leave love, bitches, just leave it. And look at my mother effing webshots cuz I update them like it's my job.
and yet... I'm still having fun...I'm still enjoying my new friends and learning...
so... sometimes I'm laughing and just having a good time and I think - I have everything in the world to be worried about right now, what am I doing? But what CAN I do?
My roomie's so great - what would I do if I had gotten stuck with a freak as a roommate? We cleaned the living shit out of our room yesterday and it was soo pretty!
Today one of the SR MT students taught a dance workshop to learn original choreography from West Side Story - so that if you ever want to audition for a production of the show yada yada... you've got a leg up. It was awesome - taught too fast for me to really do too good of a job but still - I'm so glad I went - I can't WAIT for his Chorus Line workshop. Cause that show is on my to-do list - dancer or not. Well. I'll be a dancer by the time I do it. Wherever that may be. I'm on my way. Or at least I think so. That's not to sound conceited - that's to sound "believe in myself"-ish.
Glad I went to bible study thingy today - was going to bail but I just can't say no to people when they're persistant. Also ended up going to hip hop and got Amber and Melissa there until they decided they would bail :( Oh well - always fun to try new things - I guess. Speaking of - I'm going rock climbing with Amber tomorrow YAY! I love love love the gym - my favorite way to escape from the world...and that used to be reading and coffee at the bookstore but ... I can't afford the coffee part... at all. lol. Although it's not really...funny. But it will be someday so... I'm looking towards the future.
Uhm so this fraternity hip hop show thing that I'm doing has turned out to be really friggin cool. It's nice to have a new group of friends - we're having HipHop/Wine/Laguna night on Monday and we're gonna make shirts w/our names and group name so we can wear them to hip hop class and feel hott. hehe :)
Hmmmm. I've felt sick to my stomach for ... oh, about a week now. It's fun, really, try it, live a little. I'm rambling.
Bethany's awesome - Dar's awesome - Adrienne's awesome - I apparently only attract stalkers... which isn't exactly awesome lol.
Oh well. I went downtown to hear this band with our MT students in it, play last weekend and had a great (sober~!~) time. This guy who'd been talking to me online (found me on facebook I suppose...) forever and ever ended up giving me a ride b/c I always find out when we're going out like 10 minutes before everyone leaves and so far people have been nice and have given me a ride but I HATE (!!!) asking and ... I always do so I can have a life, ya know, and people have been so nice so far, but I missed the bandwagon this time and Mack was like YOU HAVE TO GO and I was pissed cuz I didn't think there was a way but this guy kept saying I'll take you I'll take you and he's a grad student so he's older and I had NEVER met him although he kept telling me he'd seen me at so many different events we'd been at (I was like well why don't ya say hi?? lol) so finally I gave in and let him give me a ride cuz he knows Sara and Mack and all sorts of people and he's in one of hte shows and I had a good time with him - he's not someone I'd ever date but he's certainly someone I would love to be friends with - but therein lies the problem - he's always asking me to meet up with him and blah blah and I wouldnt' mind to at all... but I'm pretty sure eventually he'll want those "meet ups" to be dates and that... I"m not down with. Not to mention too much age difference when there are swarms of fellers my age around... not that I've found anyone but I guess I've only been here a month. Anyway.
I digress - downtown was fun fun fun. And then the next night I went with Amber and Mack to Amber's guy friends apt and we were having fun (us girls) and playing games and drinking and some of the guys had never really drank before (wtf? ah!) so TWO of them got FRIGGIN WASTED LIKE MAD and it ended up with us taking care of people so drunk and puking that we almost took one to the hospital - as in had him in the car and ready to go ... oy.
And I can't remember Sunday, although I know I did something... all a blur...
The weekend before there was so much drama... and parties and tshirt day and ... blah blah
And now THIS ... Me and Mack feel like these two certain guys who we really like being friends with just... are not our friends anymore - out of the blue kinda... it's so weird - I just feel weird around them and I don't know if I'm creating that atmosphere of if there's somethign they're holding against us or if it's joint or if it's two seperate issues for both of them b/c I know one of them told he he thought I hated his guts... and I told him I didn't... and I thought it sounded like "Fresh start time let's be friends" but... so far he hasn't talked to me since then... I dunno... like... I love them both - I felt like they were ignoring us today! We partied with them like every other weekend before this past one so... so weird.
Anyway - I love the JR's - I feel that they're so 'big brother/big sister' towards me and it's nice. Nice, nice. Ah yes and I saw Proposals last week. It was very good - a cute cute show.
I'm a little nervous about starting rehearsal for mine b/c it's kind of... i don't know... artsy... Proposals, Niel Simon, I love those types of shows... all straight forward, blah blah ... but who am I kidding this is awesome b/c it'll be a new challenge. Yes. Just don't blink, or you might miss me onstage. :) Eh, it's not THAT small.
I'm rambling. Spilling my guts. Why does LJ's audience need to know any of that? Makes me feel better to write for an audience? I guess so.
So... I really don't want to go to ballet tomorrow. I really enjoyed it in the beginning and now I just... don't want to work that hard. Does that make me lazy? Or stressed and tired and a bit ill from the stress and tiredness?
You know what Brittney and I were saying to eachother (via facebook) - it is gonna be mad crazy fun when we're all home for Christmas and we all go out. FOR MY BIRTHDAY! hehehehehehe. Jk - we'll go out for something though. Maybe my birthday?
Leave love, bitches, just leave it. And look at my mother effing webshots cuz I update them like it's my job.