i am physically and emotionally drained.
so i realized again why i dont go to homecoming dances.. they suck. i couldent have felt any more rejected/miserable. the playlist sucked, Ben and Erin had to work, Drew was pretty pissed off at me, but we danced a few times, and Stephen is just the most confusing dude ever. Rachel's friends kept moving around and being rediculous and overall i just felt alone and id been sick all week and idk it just wasnt a good time for me. so i went to Jesse's, we partied then went to Waffle House... and guess who walked into Waffle House next? Drew. so im pretty fucked up, im scared to death Ben was going to murder him and im just sitting there like... oh God, no i cant handle this right nowww... then Jesse's drunk ass had to say shit and everyone was laughing and making me look like an ass because i could tell he was hurt. so when they left and when the gang wouldent stop, i left and me and Ben faught real bad then as i got into my car he goes over to Drew's friend's car and talks to him and im just like, God kill me now... it was awful but Ben ended up doing the right thing and just appologizing to him. but i was pretty devistated and went home. it was the fuckin most crazy night since Kenny's going away party. but then Drew called me and i sincerely appologized and i think FINALLY were good and back to that place we used to be before we started dating. which is more then i could ever ask for. he's my best friend and i couldent go on living in this town if we lost our friendship forever. <33