So i haven't been doin this lately
yo. its me. Its been forever. I feel weird writing in this. I have like 3 online journals too. like one for camp and drum corps people. and then this one for everyone else. and one that nooooo one looks at. and no i won't tell anyone about that b/c i like just saying whatever the fuck i want. but i don't write in any of them very much. so lately its been like all of these emotions are catching up w/me. like realizing the meaning of everything bad thats happened is just kinda hitting me lately. i've been way to emotional. like stupid things can get me on the verge of tears. for some reason i don't like thinking that i'm too human. like i think i'm better than that for some reason. i don't really know how to describe it but i think what i just said was kinda on target. I'm always making plans to do something productive. to really be responsible. y'know like i AM gonna go to class. i'm going to study like i should. and then i end up here. the internet is great but its too easy of a distraction for me. so fuck. thats all i have to say. oh and i love hellogoodbye. everyone should listen to them