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I dont understand people
My family for one
Its like if I do not hail down to my family and make everything perfect, everything falls apart
It falls apart more everyday
I dont really know what it is that I do
Like my parents wonder why I dont want to be around them
But they dont even care, or want to be around me when I actually want to be with them
They both throw a fit when I have other plans besides attending every one of my sisters softball games
Not that I mind going, she is good at what she does...
But when was the last time I asked my parents to come watch me and they actually were not to busy for me...
I dont even remember
Its like they have no idea that it hurts my feelings..
They have no idea why I am so sick all the time or why I cry myself to sleep six nights a week
But there is nothing I can do
Im just trying to keep my spanish grade from spiraling down into a black hole
So far I guess Im doing alright, it hasnt budged, up or down...
I never thought a language would stress me out so much
And of course Im still sick
I have been since December..that would be about four months now..
Im not sure what is wrong with me
To be honest
Im starting to get worried..
But I think Im getting a little better
I dont have headaches that make me sick to my stomach everyday..and I think the mysterious weight loss has stopped, so I guess that can only be a good thing.
As far as prom goes, Im done...its a little over a week away, and my date is no longer my date, so much for the perfect prom, but it was far from perfect when the one and only person I wanted to go with couldnt, It has been a disaster from the start...
It is somewhat crushing to know that I didnt make the top 25 either, only one more reminder of how much I dont belong in my class...or even this school
But Im sure none of this is even somewhat interesting to anyone
I should stop pouring my heart out like Im on Dr. Phil or something and someone will right back with an answer to all of this crazyness in my life
I think Im going to go run..
<3
My family for one
Its like if I do not hail down to my family and make everything perfect, everything falls apart
It falls apart more everyday
I dont really know what it is that I do
Like my parents wonder why I dont want to be around them
But they dont even care, or want to be around me when I actually want to be with them
They both throw a fit when I have other plans besides attending every one of my sisters softball games
Not that I mind going, she is good at what she does...
But when was the last time I asked my parents to come watch me and they actually were not to busy for me...
I dont even remember
Its like they have no idea that it hurts my feelings..
They have no idea why I am so sick all the time or why I cry myself to sleep six nights a week
But there is nothing I can do
Im just trying to keep my spanish grade from spiraling down into a black hole
So far I guess Im doing alright, it hasnt budged, up or down...
I never thought a language would stress me out so much
And of course Im still sick
I have been since December..that would be about four months now..
Im not sure what is wrong with me
To be honest
Im starting to get worried..
But I think Im getting a little better
I dont have headaches that make me sick to my stomach everyday..and I think the mysterious weight loss has stopped, so I guess that can only be a good thing.
As far as prom goes, Im done...its a little over a week away, and my date is no longer my date, so much for the perfect prom, but it was far from perfect when the one and only person I wanted to go with couldnt, It has been a disaster from the start...
It is somewhat crushing to know that I didnt make the top 25 either, only one more reminder of how much I dont belong in my class...or even this school
But Im sure none of this is even somewhat interesting to anyone
I should stop pouring my heart out like Im on Dr. Phil or something and someone will right back with an answer to all of this crazyness in my life
I think Im going to go run..
<3