"...to take back the child you have stolen."
Never thought I would see the day. Confused about which way is where I want to go. Not really functioning as of yet. Wonder why the reality of it all hasn't hit me. You think it is going to?
Fuck you. Yeah, you too. And you, you fucking bastard trying to exit the theatre? GET YOUR ASS back up here and be fucked along with the rest of them.
I'm giving up. Whatever. I honestly don't care any more, about the pictures, about myself, about anything.
I thought about over dosing. Wonder what it would have felt like. Knowing my luck, I'd just have my stomach pumped and then be ass raped by my mother. But that is such a mystery to me. What does it feel like? Do you just sleep? Don't worry any one, I'm a pussy.
Ah, kitten. I care about him. And his sister. And Annie.
Have to not buy my CD because I am getting Jade's package soon hopefully. And I have to pay for it. -sigh- So long Velvet Goldmine soundtrack.
Message to everyone:
If I am a fucking burden, leave me alone. If I make you feel anything but happy, leave me alone. If you don't love me, leave me alone. If my life is a big fuckin' sob story to you, leave me alone. I'm tired of being fucking everything to everyone. Fucking play with yourselves from now on, I hate it. Hate the way it makes me feel. Hate the way you make me feel.
I'm going to go do the things that make me forget. I want to get fucked up, who has anything fun that I know? Monica?
Damnit, I have no money to buy any shit, so it would be charity. Anyone love me enough?
Fuck you. Yeah, you too. And you, you fucking bastard trying to exit the theatre? GET YOUR ASS back up here and be fucked along with the rest of them.
I'm giving up. Whatever. I honestly don't care any more, about the pictures, about myself, about anything.
I thought about over dosing. Wonder what it would have felt like. Knowing my luck, I'd just have my stomach pumped and then be ass raped by my mother. But that is such a mystery to me. What does it feel like? Do you just sleep? Don't worry any one, I'm a pussy.
Ah, kitten. I care about him. And his sister. And Annie.
Have to not buy my CD because I am getting Jade's package soon hopefully. And I have to pay for it. -sigh- So long Velvet Goldmine soundtrack.
Message to everyone:
If I am a fucking burden, leave me alone. If I make you feel anything but happy, leave me alone. If you don't love me, leave me alone. If my life is a big fuckin' sob story to you, leave me alone. I'm tired of being fucking everything to everyone. Fucking play with yourselves from now on, I hate it. Hate the way it makes me feel. Hate the way you make me feel.
I'm going to go do the things that make me forget. I want to get fucked up, who has anything fun that I know? Monica?
Damnit, I have no money to buy any shit, so it would be charity. Anyone love me enough?