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Why is it that those who you adore and want to understand can't always see where you are coming from? And then you turn to those who should know you best and they really don't care. My family sucks...I do love them and don't wish any ill will on them but they don't care about what I am going thru...I feel really alone right now. I know I have done this to myself but life is being hateful to me right now. I just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be ok...I don't need advice or solutions...just a little nurturing...something I haven't gotten in almost two years.
Depression does crazy things to you and it is very hard to function at times. I could make my daughter stay with her dad...quit my job and go to work in some fast food resturant to make just enough money to live off of, food, car payment, insurance and gas. But I want something better than that....I really do but I have learned that it don't come to you all at once you have to be patient. It is hard to be patient sometimes.
I have been crying today...I feel all alone today. I want to be alone today.
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Rejection, Jealousy, Lonelyness are all evil!!