hmmmm'ness
Haven’t posted in a while, I never really have much to say.
I've been a little stressed of late. If "floating" is the term that’s used to describe what I’ve been doing for the last year, then the swells are growing. Or maybe the boats getting smaller. Or maybe there's no more fish. I don't know, but it feels bad...
Basically, every part of me is telling me that it’s time to move on. Something new. Something different. Unfortunately, due to a lack of foresight in the past, I'm not in a position where this move is possible.
My current position is as follows:
- I have 8 units completed at uni
- I have a job that pays well, but maybe isn't as challenging/rewarding as I’d like it to be
- I'm in debt. Nothing unmanageable by any means... But probably requires at least a year of hard work and continued motivation to be rid of it completely
Basically, I've spent the last three years spending money and deciding that IT is not for me... lol
My problem is as follows:
I don't know what I want to do. Through either unavailability or ignorance I'm unable to see/think of a career that seems in any way fulfilling... The idea of doing a course (IE: Management / IT / Commerce) in the pursuit of skills with which to get a job, working for someone else’s money making machine (not wanting to sound too dramatic), is ludicrous. If this is my one go, I want to find something worth while yeah? But what???
I think I'd be in a better position to make a decision regarding my path in life, after travelling. I'd be able to widen my eyes to what possibilities are actually out there. The problem is... you guessed it! $$$$$$$$$$$$ MONEY!!! To do this, I need to work full time for at least another year, and it'd have to be a cheap year, to get rid of the debt first. The only problem with that is that the boredom caused by simply working, leads to the need of expensive and unhealthy distractions. Which ultimately leads to me being in the same position at this time next year.
I have the option of taking up a couple of units in an arts degree. The wide variety of possible units is attractive. I’ll get a chance to sample bits and pieces and pursue whatever tickles my fancy (or any other part of my anatomy). But the question is, is this manageable considering I’ll be working 40 hours a week in a rotation roster? Because I need to work 40 hours to pay off the debt, so I can travel. Also against this idea, is the fact that part time, even with previously completed units, completing this course will take me another four years…
Perhaps I need to start this arts course, while working full time and paying off debt, see how long I can stand it for after debt has been paid, and then head off into the wide world and find out whether the arts degree was a good idea.
Ahh, vicious circles… Oh wise LJ readers… What is thou opinion?
In other news:
- MySpace is fairly interesting.
- xmas has been forfeited for this year. Neither xmas party's or xmas lunch will be attended. Microwave turkey's nice yeah?
- I finally got my car fixed and serviced... Running like a gump. Ahhh yeah.
- I've had a couple of days of "good boy livin'" and I’m feeling great for it. There's something to be said for this healthy lifestyle people on TV infomercials are always talking about.
- Granted that I can get my hands on a ticket on rerelease date (classified), I'll be coming to falls this year... Never been to a festival. Seems a good crew too... Shenanigans!!!
I've been a little stressed of late. If "floating" is the term that’s used to describe what I’ve been doing for the last year, then the swells are growing. Or maybe the boats getting smaller. Or maybe there's no more fish. I don't know, but it feels bad...
Basically, every part of me is telling me that it’s time to move on. Something new. Something different. Unfortunately, due to a lack of foresight in the past, I'm not in a position where this move is possible.
My current position is as follows:
- I have 8 units completed at uni
- I have a job that pays well, but maybe isn't as challenging/rewarding as I’d like it to be
- I'm in debt. Nothing unmanageable by any means... But probably requires at least a year of hard work and continued motivation to be rid of it completely
Basically, I've spent the last three years spending money and deciding that IT is not for me... lol
My problem is as follows:
I don't know what I want to do. Through either unavailability or ignorance I'm unable to see/think of a career that seems in any way fulfilling... The idea of doing a course (IE: Management / IT / Commerce) in the pursuit of skills with which to get a job, working for someone else’s money making machine (not wanting to sound too dramatic), is ludicrous. If this is my one go, I want to find something worth while yeah? But what???
I think I'd be in a better position to make a decision regarding my path in life, after travelling. I'd be able to widen my eyes to what possibilities are actually out there. The problem is... you guessed it! $$$$$$$$$$$$ MONEY!!! To do this, I need to work full time for at least another year, and it'd have to be a cheap year, to get rid of the debt first. The only problem with that is that the boredom caused by simply working, leads to the need of expensive and unhealthy distractions. Which ultimately leads to me being in the same position at this time next year.
I have the option of taking up a couple of units in an arts degree. The wide variety of possible units is attractive. I’ll get a chance to sample bits and pieces and pursue whatever tickles my fancy (or any other part of my anatomy). But the question is, is this manageable considering I’ll be working 40 hours a week in a rotation roster? Because I need to work 40 hours to pay off the debt, so I can travel. Also against this idea, is the fact that part time, even with previously completed units, completing this course will take me another four years…
Perhaps I need to start this arts course, while working full time and paying off debt, see how long I can stand it for after debt has been paid, and then head off into the wide world and find out whether the arts degree was a good idea.
Ahh, vicious circles… Oh wise LJ readers… What is thou opinion?
In other news:
- MySpace is fairly interesting.
- xmas has been forfeited for this year. Neither xmas party's or xmas lunch will be attended. Microwave turkey's nice yeah?
- I finally got my car fixed and serviced... Running like a gump. Ahhh yeah.
- I've had a couple of days of "good boy livin'" and I’m feeling great for it. There's something to be said for this healthy lifestyle people on TV infomercials are always talking about.
- Granted that I can get my hands on a ticket on rerelease date (classified), I'll be coming to falls this year... Never been to a festival. Seems a good crew too... Shenanigans!!!