And I want...
My God.
I was just going through old snapshot archives... stored on my computer. I found DOZENS of photos of me in a quite precarious situation, with these two girls I used to be close to...
Jesus.. Its sick, but I can't remember the night at all.. not for the life of me. I TRULY speant over a year of my life in a deranged delerium.. a total blackout.
How did I survive? Why did I survive?
I am in such a state now. I cannot describe where I have been to over these past few weeks. But I was given a gift.. A rare opportunity of sight that few ever have.
I have seen myself from the outside.. maybe what YOU see. I was appaled, disgusted.
I loathe my flesh, I loathe my spirit.
I was born to be more.. to feel more, to make more, to know more. More than this shit.
I will not be another dead junkie.
I refuse to let your words make me another waste.
I will wake again, I will love again.
I will take my life back and I will grow into something we can here only dream of.
I want what I want.
I was just going through old snapshot archives... stored on my computer. I found DOZENS of photos of me in a quite precarious situation, with these two girls I used to be close to...
Jesus.. Its sick, but I can't remember the night at all.. not for the life of me. I TRULY speant over a year of my life in a deranged delerium.. a total blackout.
How did I survive? Why did I survive?
I am in such a state now. I cannot describe where I have been to over these past few weeks. But I was given a gift.. A rare opportunity of sight that few ever have.
I have seen myself from the outside.. maybe what YOU see. I was appaled, disgusted.
I loathe my flesh, I loathe my spirit.
I was born to be more.. to feel more, to make more, to know more. More than this shit.
I will not be another dead junkie.
I refuse to let your words make me another waste.
I will wake again, I will love again.
I will take my life back and I will grow into something we can here only dream of.
I want what I want.