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Hateful? Maybe.
I am confused beyond my psychological ability to reason.
That is the actual problem.
My life since Ive detoxed is a disgusting, fragmented nightmare.
It's weak to admit, and i don't care. But Im broken without heroin.
Everything i feel is jaded or empty.
I am constantly living with an over-consuming hunger that has no satisfaction.
There isnt anyway for you to ever understand. So you laugh and call me hateful and pity me.
And in a way, you are right. I hate myself for it.
I hurt that so many of them forsake me.. together.
Nothing I can do for it now.
I get the sense that what I write doesnt reach people, or it doesnt make much sense anymore.
Noone can respond to me with anything but some old fashioned contempt.
In a way, trying to see me from your level... I think I understand.
It's best that you just dont bother with it anymore.
You are not understanding me, or where Ive gone.
I evoke only hate and pity from you.
You should do this right, just go.
Dont read anything anymore. Dont look ever.
it will be easiest and I wont have to burn because I was judged.
I am confused beyond my psychological ability to reason.
That is the actual problem.
My life since Ive detoxed is a disgusting, fragmented nightmare.
It's weak to admit, and i don't care. But Im broken without heroin.
Everything i feel is jaded or empty.
I am constantly living with an over-consuming hunger that has no satisfaction.
There isnt anyway for you to ever understand. So you laugh and call me hateful and pity me.
And in a way, you are right. I hate myself for it.
I hurt that so many of them forsake me.. together.
Nothing I can do for it now.
I get the sense that what I write doesnt reach people, or it doesnt make much sense anymore.
Noone can respond to me with anything but some old fashioned contempt.
In a way, trying to see me from your level... I think I understand.
It's best that you just dont bother with it anymore.
You are not understanding me, or where Ive gone.
I evoke only hate and pity from you.
You should do this right, just go.
Dont read anything anymore. Dont look ever.
it will be easiest and I wont have to burn because I was judged.