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I was taken by one of those dreams last night.
The sort that are too real... where everything that happens, however absurd.. feels so intensely...
Those dreams shake me.. when I am awake afterward I am lost in the wake of things that I felt or saw.
In my dream, I knew something that I could never admit to myself by day... because it's a truth that I cannot live with. Still, I know how ugly Ive become. I will not ever be wanted again.
"3:10 PM
Im not worth it. Noone has eve rsacrificed for me, nor has anyone ever fought to have me... noone has ever stood up for me, or chosen me from among the rest. I am never, nor will I be, somebody's favorite, someone's perfect. I have never been loved. I have to find a way to accept that."
The sort that are too real... where everything that happens, however absurd.. feels so intensely...
Those dreams shake me.. when I am awake afterward I am lost in the wake of things that I felt or saw.
In my dream, I knew something that I could never admit to myself by day... because it's a truth that I cannot live with. Still, I know how ugly Ive become. I will not ever be wanted again.
"3:10 PM
Im not worth it. Noone has eve rsacrificed for me, nor has anyone ever fought to have me... noone has ever stood up for me, or chosen me from among the rest. I am never, nor will I be, somebody's favorite, someone's perfect. I have never been loved. I have to find a way to accept that."