The Changes in my Meds aka Why I've Been a Bitch Lately
Last month my doctor upped my dose of the Seroquel I was taking to see if it improves any of my symptoms. Well, it made me a lot more focused and remember more but it also made me a LETHARGIC, RAGING, IRRITABLE BITCH. Everything was irritating me, I wasn't happy at all. When people wanted to talk to me I would try to be polite but I was just not having any of it, I didn't want to talk to people. I started to ignore people who wanted to talk to me cos I would be horrible to everyone, it even showed in my TEXTS that I was irritated! Recently I took a trip with my ex and after the trip he said he didn't want to talk to me for a while cos I was making my little comments and giving him big-time attitude and bitchy. It was then that I realized that I'd been like this for quite some time and that it all started when the doctor upped my dose.
Since the fine people at the mental health clinic closed my case (didn't tell me anything prior) and moved it to the comprehensive health center (which I HATE with a passion, I don't know why they made me go to that place), I lost the opportunity to talk with my meds doctor about this adverse reaction to my upped dose. I loved that doctor, she knew my history and was really helpful, she was talking to me about other meds to replace my Seroquel cos it's most likely damaging my liver. Now I have to talk to the therapist about my meds NEXT MONTH and ask her about the same options the other doctor was talking about. I don't feel comfortable with the therapist cos I just met her and she doesn't know my case as well as the other doctor did.
In the meantime, I played doctor with myself and took myself off the extra 50 mg that was making me so fucking miserable. After one night I felt so INCREDIBLY HAPPY!!! I wasn't irritated in the least, very energetic, wanted to talk to people, I couldn't believe the difference! The downside is that I'm all Pinkie Pie up in hurr right now, I'm ditzy as fuck and am having problems with my memory again. I'll talk to the doc about that, hopefully we can discuss some more options and substitutes to the Seroquel.