AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGgg
Damned ...I guess....All ive been doin for the past three days is drink in steady.. cuss when im not my heart feels like its got a stomach ache..It fuckin sucks...Being in like fuckin sux especially when your not sure the person that you like even really wants anything to do with you......Its sux I think Im girl crazy..or at least thats what the say..I dont think Im am..Its just that after three years of being single you get to the point where youre lookin or you have just got used to being alone..and you cope withnth independency kick..TO me bieng in like with someone and not being able to properly express youre feeling towards them is like being straight edge t me just like walkin the line....And to me thats really hardcore..I dont even know why i care anymore really ...every time I even think about a girl that may even give a fuck it seems like no matter what I wil be alone thinkning about and what Id do if i only could like theres allwas somethin in the way constanly.......I wish I could be ok with bein alone and seeing girls who might like me and not give a fuck but I cant .....and the drinknin doesnt stop the hurtin its still does..oonly cuss i know shes there and that she exist and that she only this far away ..but no ....NO HAPPINESS FOR ME.....
just one night to hold her in my arms..one night to look in her eyes and speak into them and tell her how it is how i feel in truth..not cheesy handles like love ,lust , like , just is . ANd just be there in thmoment enjoying it for what is, and what it could be.....Allthe while the solace make my heart pump aderenliene....laterz off to get pissed
just one night to hold her in my arms..one night to look in her eyes and speak into them and tell her how it is how i feel in truth..not cheesy handles like love ,lust , like , just is . ANd just be there in thmoment enjoying it for what is, and what it could be.....Allthe while the solace make my heart pump aderenliene....laterz off to get pissed