dear journal
Oh, how I have neglected you. Who knows how much I could have learned from writing about all the things that have occurred since my last entry. Science has taken me in, and I have taken it in too. It is my calling.
In spite of the amount of time I normally spend freaking out about school, lab, the future, and life, I want to take time to just write. Going to Chevy Chase this week was an eye opener in many regards. It was nice to be around other nerds like myself. It is so easy to lose track of what the point of learning the ten steps of glycolysis or learning how to juggle four classes is. Going to this meeting at HHMI helped me remember. My god, how close I am to actually finishing with my undergraduate stuff and actually moving on to becoming a researcher. I guess you could say that I am at a transition point, and I feel as though I don't know how to deal with it. Transitions in life are always intimidating, yet none have been as intimidating as this one for me. I realize that as soon as I apply to the last grad school of my top 7 list and finish my Gilliam Fellowship application, I will have gone past the point of no return. At that point, I will have signed off my life to science. And I don't say it as if I did not like the thought. I get excited thinking about spending a whole day in the lab and doing experiments. It's just that I will not have much time to spend with my family or with my friends. It's going to be difficult. The recurring thought of all of this is MANAGE YOUR TIME WELL. I know this, and many people my age have mastered this (I can think of one, actually, but this person is on top of it). For that reason, I feel incompetent sometimes. So then, am I ready? Am I willing to cut the crap, cut the procrastination, cut the laziness when it comes and just kick it into gear? I know this is an interesting comparison, but I compare myself to Lady GaGa's dedication. Here is this incredible artist, performing nonstop since November of 2009, adding more and more legs to her tour. Currently, the end date of her Monster Ball Tour is set for May 2011. That's almost two years of touring the world, and yet there are people making youtube videos asking her to take the tour to them. Will she listen to them? Probably. I can't help but notice how dedicated she is to her job, if we even want to call it that.
I would like to develop that comparison more, but I have to go. People arrived and I will probably not have time later. Later
H
In spite of the amount of time I normally spend freaking out about school, lab, the future, and life, I want to take time to just write. Going to Chevy Chase this week was an eye opener in many regards. It was nice to be around other nerds like myself. It is so easy to lose track of what the point of learning the ten steps of glycolysis or learning how to juggle four classes is. Going to this meeting at HHMI helped me remember. My god, how close I am to actually finishing with my undergraduate stuff and actually moving on to becoming a researcher. I guess you could say that I am at a transition point, and I feel as though I don't know how to deal with it. Transitions in life are always intimidating, yet none have been as intimidating as this one for me. I realize that as soon as I apply to the last grad school of my top 7 list and finish my Gilliam Fellowship application, I will have gone past the point of no return. At that point, I will have signed off my life to science. And I don't say it as if I did not like the thought. I get excited thinking about spending a whole day in the lab and doing experiments. It's just that I will not have much time to spend with my family or with my friends. It's going to be difficult. The recurring thought of all of this is MANAGE YOUR TIME WELL. I know this, and many people my age have mastered this (I can think of one, actually, but this person is on top of it). For that reason, I feel incompetent sometimes. So then, am I ready? Am I willing to cut the crap, cut the procrastination, cut the laziness when it comes and just kick it into gear? I know this is an interesting comparison, but I compare myself to Lady GaGa's dedication. Here is this incredible artist, performing nonstop since November of 2009, adding more and more legs to her tour. Currently, the end date of her Monster Ball Tour is set for May 2011. That's almost two years of touring the world, and yet there are people making youtube videos asking her to take the tour to them. Will she listen to them? Probably. I can't help but notice how dedicated she is to her job, if we even want to call it that.
I would like to develop that comparison more, but I have to go. People arrived and I will probably not have time later. Later
H