2023 - what is it going to look like?
The honest truth: I have no idea but this is the first time in a while that things have been so unclear to me-- I am usually a girl with some kind of organization, some kind of plan.
2022 was really busy but also really depressing. I just looked back at my calendar and I'm always so shocked that I, like, DID ANYTHING because I can never remember what happened!
All year long, I worked from home until the last minute--
--until they asked me to come back to work.
Pros: I can focus just a bit better so I try to just bite the bullet and work. Eating makes me sleepy so I eat very little, usually in a snack form.
Cons: ...unfortunately, my commute is still long as ever. I can't really justify driving every single day but my commute is literally 2.5 hours one way! If I can rest a bit, it's okay but otherwise, every day I feel like I have been beaten up.
Once thing I have to admite to myself lately, is how depressed I've become. It's why I am pushing myself to write because it kind of helps push down the misery. But it's been a long time since I have actually written anything, let along fanfic... but for the last few years, being part of any kind of fandom was kind of futile, given the energy you have to devote to media. When I get home, or when I get a day off, I DO NOT WANT to look at screens of any kind, even my phone. But it's impossible! Because anything else you want to do requires expense.
Please don't hesitate to comment if you see this. Otherwise, I won't know who is still trying to be on here or who has abandoned LJ.
2022 was really busy but also really depressing. I just looked back at my calendar and I'm always so shocked that I, like, DID ANYTHING because I can never remember what happened!
All year long, I worked from home until the last minute--
--until they asked me to come back to work.
Pros: I can focus just a bit better so I try to just bite the bullet and work. Eating makes me sleepy so I eat very little, usually in a snack form.
Cons: ...unfortunately, my commute is still long as ever. I can't really justify driving every single day but my commute is literally 2.5 hours one way! If I can rest a bit, it's okay but otherwise, every day I feel like I have been beaten up.
Once thing I have to admite to myself lately, is how depressed I've become. It's why I am pushing myself to write because it kind of helps push down the misery. But it's been a long time since I have actually written anything, let along fanfic... but for the last few years, being part of any kind of fandom was kind of futile, given the energy you have to devote to media. When I get home, or when I get a day off, I DO NOT WANT to look at screens of any kind, even my phone. But it's impossible! Because anything else you want to do requires expense.
Please don't hesitate to comment if you see this. Otherwise, I won't know who is still trying to be on here or who has abandoned LJ.