love, life, happiness....
state--beers--no sleep for something like 40+ hours.....
excerpt from my paper journal......
09-10-03 1.16A
so, where the hell am i? i cant keep my mind off you...if this isnt meant to be, im not sure of what im to do...im reminded of before- before the pain-when the mere thought of you would bring the tingling....the warmth that starts in my stomach and radiates out to my extremities...."[s]he makes my guts go gooey"-veronica sawyer- heathers....there have been four...four to make me feel this way...
first it was amanda 7th grade as i recall; allegrhea just after high school; my sweetest mijanette; and then laura, my final attempt. amanda, god...i barely fucking remember--she was my first, and i thought my last...it was completely unrequited love to begin. but it grew into...so much more, and now i cherish the friendship we had...allegrhea..she is with another now, i hope to god he can give her what i never possibly could...laura; i threw all i had into that one and look where i ended up...never again with a capricorn...i saved you, my mija for the last because after all the fucking heartache-and all the shit-you are my only salvation..you can see into my soul. and becase i know myself better than any other, i can see a glimpse of yours...you see my love; and this is what terrifies me the most--my heart tells me you are my soul mate...what joseph campbell (and jung, among others) calls the complete union of opposites....i was raised by my momma, you know, and the most important thing she taught me was follow your heart...
well my heart leads straight to wrightwood, california...straight into your arms, my love...my only love.....
excerpt from my paper journal......
09-10-03 1.16A
so, where the hell am i? i cant keep my mind off you...if this isnt meant to be, im not sure of what im to do...im reminded of before- before the pain-when the mere thought of you would bring the tingling....the warmth that starts in my stomach and radiates out to my extremities...."[s]he makes my guts go gooey"-veronica sawyer- heathers....there have been four...four to make me feel this way...
first it was amanda 7th grade as i recall; allegrhea just after high school; my sweetest mijanette; and then laura, my final attempt. amanda, god...i barely fucking remember--she was my first, and i thought my last...it was completely unrequited love to begin. but it grew into...so much more, and now i cherish the friendship we had...allegrhea..she is with another now, i hope to god he can give her what i never possibly could...laura; i threw all i had into that one and look where i ended up...never again with a capricorn...i saved you, my mija for the last because after all the fucking heartache-and all the shit-you are my only salvation..you can see into my soul. and becase i know myself better than any other, i can see a glimpse of yours...you see my love; and this is what terrifies me the most--my heart tells me you are my soul mate...what joseph campbell (and jung, among others) calls the complete union of opposites....i was raised by my momma, you know, and the most important thing she taught me was follow your heart...
well my heart leads straight to wrightwood, california...straight into your arms, my love...my only love.....