Ramblings from 4 in the Morning
How many times do I have to restart this entry? Too many times, that is. In a nutshell, all I really wanted to say was that I am really happy right now. And it's funny, because back when I had everything I needed and only a few things I wanted, I was completely miserable. But now that I lost a major portion of what I need and I have a lot more of what I want, I am completely and utterly satisfied. Let me rephrase this quickly...
Back when I was bogged down and trapped by my workplace environment, I was unhappy because that feeling spilled over into my life outside of work and created things for me like social inhibitions, lack of time management, and artificial distractions. Working for a place for four years makes it really hard to quit, no matter how negative of an atmosphere it contains.
Now that I've been ousted from that place, I feel like a new man. I'm more confident than ever, which has really improved my school work and my social life. I can actually talk to people without feeling like they're judging me harshly, like how I was scrutinized daily at Kroger. And I've taken a greater appreciation and understanding of the things I have and the people who've always been there for me.
So if you hear me talk about losing job, don't take it as a plea for pity, but as words of celebration! I can now pursue my passions. Sure, money's going to be a problem sooner or later, but when one values money over their own personal wellness, one only leads an ultimately empty and unsatisfied life.
I just wanted to reiterate that I am the happiest I've been in a few years, despite my current realistic situation. Thank you. :)
PS. I was thinking about making this journal a friends only journal, but honestly: say what you want about me, anonymous people. There's not even an ounce of consideration for credibility in your comments until you back it up with a name.
Back when I was bogged down and trapped by my workplace environment, I was unhappy because that feeling spilled over into my life outside of work and created things for me like social inhibitions, lack of time management, and artificial distractions. Working for a place for four years makes it really hard to quit, no matter how negative of an atmosphere it contains.
Now that I've been ousted from that place, I feel like a new man. I'm more confident than ever, which has really improved my school work and my social life. I can actually talk to people without feeling like they're judging me harshly, like how I was scrutinized daily at Kroger. And I've taken a greater appreciation and understanding of the things I have and the people who've always been there for me.
So if you hear me talk about losing job, don't take it as a plea for pity, but as words of celebration! I can now pursue my passions. Sure, money's going to be a problem sooner or later, but when one values money over their own personal wellness, one only leads an ultimately empty and unsatisfied life.
I just wanted to reiterate that I am the happiest I've been in a few years, despite my current realistic situation. Thank you. :)
PS. I was thinking about making this journal a friends only journal, but honestly: say what you want about me, anonymous people. There's not even an ounce of consideration for credibility in your comments until you back it up with a name.