perpetual melancholy.
you know, i just think i'm getting worse, sometimes.
i'm gone from constant strife to constant ups and downs. i'm sure i'll level out someday.
camp season started again. i mean, it's tough anyway, but i don't think about it as much anymore. but i'm telling you, beginning of june, something triggers... it's totally unconscious, too, that's what's scary. but all of a sudden, i've spent the last two weeks constantly moody and on the verge of tears. and i just miss it.
god, i want to be able to feel better when i write in this, the way it used to be. but i don't. it isn't getting me anywhere.
i'm just so lonely. i don't really have anyone around anymore, and it hurts. being antisocial in high school is catching up with me.. i don't have anyone left. i don't know.. you know when you just start crying when you realize how bad you need to talk to someone.. but no one's there?
i'm sick of that feeling.
i'm gone from constant strife to constant ups and downs. i'm sure i'll level out someday.
camp season started again. i mean, it's tough anyway, but i don't think about it as much anymore. but i'm telling you, beginning of june, something triggers... it's totally unconscious, too, that's what's scary. but all of a sudden, i've spent the last two weeks constantly moody and on the verge of tears. and i just miss it.
god, i want to be able to feel better when i write in this, the way it used to be. but i don't. it isn't getting me anywhere.
i'm just so lonely. i don't really have anyone around anymore, and it hurts. being antisocial in high school is catching up with me.. i don't have anyone left. i don't know.. you know when you just start crying when you realize how bad you need to talk to someone.. but no one's there?
i'm sick of that feeling.