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LJ is leaving tomorrow. This was a true realization that my friends are leaving and I won't see them ever fucking again. I hate this. I fucking hate this. I am the most emo kid ever. GAH I just need to talk to someone and realize that I'm just over fucking reacting and that we will still talk and hang out and shit, but I'm just a pessimistic retard who can only see the bad in things. And right now, all I can see is bad and it fucking sucks hardcore. Wow life has fucking flown by. I'm 18 and going to college. I can still remember things from like my 2nd birthday. I smashed my face into my cake. I remember learning to swim and how much I hated going to fleet after that. I remember when I was easily the worst player on my soccer team when I first started playing and I was 6. And how I used to play baseball with Dave and JC and Mr. Curtis was our coach. The most fun thing I did this summer...wasn't even in the summer, it was right before school ended and we went to the astros game. That was so amazing, infact I haven't been to a game since and I really regret that. I found Garden State and I'm watching it tomorrow if I have time. I'm gonna miss you guys so much.
So yeah I definitely had a nightmare last night and it sucked sooooo much. Everyone freaking hated me a lot. I dreamed that I woke up at like 8pm, but still went and saw all of my friends. Let's see how things went, I went to hang out with Alex, Jeff and those guys and they all just acted like I wasn't there. Brad told me to fuck off and Katie said I hate you and don't ever talk to me again...yeah that was a sweet dream.
So Alex, Luke and I hung out with LJ today. It was good. I didn't realize how long I've known LJ til today, we met in 7th grade and I also realized that despite the fact that we didn't hang out much this year, he was still one of my best friends. :\ It was pretty depressing when it came time for him to leave, I mean what more can you do than just give that friend a hug and wish them the best of luck? Hopefully he'll be able to come back home for Thanksgiving and hopefully this is the last edit of this damn depressing entry.
So yeah I definitely had a nightmare last night and it sucked sooooo much. Everyone freaking hated me a lot. I dreamed that I woke up at like 8pm, but still went and saw all of my friends. Let's see how things went, I went to hang out with Alex, Jeff and those guys and they all just acted like I wasn't there. Brad told me to fuck off and Katie said I hate you and don't ever talk to me again...yeah that was a sweet dream.
So Alex, Luke and I hung out with LJ today. It was good. I didn't realize how long I've known LJ til today, we met in 7th grade and I also realized that despite the fact that we didn't hang out much this year, he was still one of my best friends. :\ It was pretty depressing when it came time for him to leave, I mean what more can you do than just give that friend a hug and wish them the best of luck? Hopefully he'll be able to come back home for Thanksgiving and hopefully this is the last edit of this damn depressing entry.