Lowness
I had a reallly low day last night. I was off yesterday, did fuck all, my stomach killing me. I rped most of the day and yet I felt so...down and I still feel down. The stupid thing, was that I was eyeing the razors in the bathroom, and was really considering it. But I'm such a coward...
Matt's singing in ICT, he's cheering me up, my teacher asked if I was alright, even those in my class, which was different. None of my friends said anything, but they know what I'm like, sometimes I just need to think and keep to myself to get over what's wrong.
I was talking to a girl this morning I roleplay with, she plays Reno, and she's been with her girlfriend for 5 years. I'm really jealous of that, she's 20 and lives with her girlfriend and her mum.
I think, for some reason, that just made me feel worse.
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Theres a new video site called video jug. It's accessable at school as well. We just watched a vid called how to kill a vampire. Ha, he kept licking his teeth and was dashing and stupid.
I'd better get back to work, half day as it is. Hope I'm in a better mood later.