Car and no where to go..
The weather is warming up (yay!) and I'm starting to get restless.
When it was cold, I loved being inside all warm. But now spring is here and I need to GET OUT. Being in here is just bordering on intolerable and frustrating. I move out in a little over a month and I really can't wait. I've whined about the people I live with before so I'm not going to do it again... but they are starting to have more people over. I know they talk about me so when I come home and see them, I don't want to speak or anything and it's awkward because I fee rude but sorry, I don't give a damn about those people. I can admit, that sounds bitchy and anti-social but there is so much I don't give a fuck in my system. And it's hard for me to be social and smiley and friendly with people who dislike my boyfriend and who gossip about me behind my back. I just don't have it in me to be fake. I'm sorry... I really do wish circumstances were different, but as it stands right now, they are not friends of mine and I just want to get out of this situation.
Ugh, that sounds horrible but I really can't help how I feel.
Anyway, I do not plan on being cooped up in my room because I don't want to socialize with who I live with. I'm going to have the car for the remaining month that I'm in school and I want to be as far away as possible.
But, I don't really have anywhere to go. Nothing to do and limited numbers of people to do it with.
I'm going to sign up for child-birthing classes tomorrow just to get out of the house (and also for the child-birthing benefits).
I am also going to try to find things that are happening in the community. I just need to get OUT THERE and I hope I really do find some events because I'll probably spend my time shoe-shopping otherwise and that's not good on my wallet lol
I've read that at this point in my pregnancy, the baby takes on my emotions. If I'm happy, the baby is happy and if I get stressed out the baby feels that too. I don't want to be stressed out all the time like I already am. I want to need to get out and enjoy myself. I just need to take control of my own emotions and control of my life and I'm ready to do that.
I wish I was close enough to go to the beach for the day! Maybe a weekend...
When it was cold, I loved being inside all warm. But now spring is here and I need to GET OUT. Being in here is just bordering on intolerable and frustrating. I move out in a little over a month and I really can't wait. I've whined about the people I live with before so I'm not going to do it again... but they are starting to have more people over. I know they talk about me so when I come home and see them, I don't want to speak or anything and it's awkward because I fee rude but sorry, I don't give a damn about those people. I can admit, that sounds bitchy and anti-social but there is so much I don't give a fuck in my system. And it's hard for me to be social and smiley and friendly with people who dislike my boyfriend and who gossip about me behind my back. I just don't have it in me to be fake. I'm sorry... I really do wish circumstances were different, but as it stands right now, they are not friends of mine and I just want to get out of this situation.
Ugh, that sounds horrible but I really can't help how I feel.
Anyway, I do not plan on being cooped up in my room because I don't want to socialize with who I live with. I'm going to have the car for the remaining month that I'm in school and I want to be as far away as possible.
But, I don't really have anywhere to go. Nothing to do and limited numbers of people to do it with.
I'm going to sign up for child-birthing classes tomorrow just to get out of the house (and also for the child-birthing benefits).
I am also going to try to find things that are happening in the community. I just need to get OUT THERE and I hope I really do find some events because I'll probably spend my time shoe-shopping otherwise and that's not good on my wallet lol
I've read that at this point in my pregnancy, the baby takes on my emotions. If I'm happy, the baby is happy and if I get stressed out the baby feels that too. I don't want to be stressed out all the time like I already am. I want to need to get out and enjoy myself. I just need to take control of my own emotions and control of my life and I'm ready to do that.
I wish I was close enough to go to the beach for the day! Maybe a weekend...