Advice?
I've always felt myself drawn to a female deity especially after reading the Children of Earth series in high school. I tried to ignore it the same as I hid from my sexuality.
I was raised Christian and was taught that to believe in anyone else was sinful.
I came out to my family as a lesbian two years back and I worry about causing more conflict. I want to be true to myself especially since I have been have been feeling the presence of at least one particular goddess in my life very recently. I worry about offending her and being untrue to myself seems a worse 'sin' then turning from the faith of my family.
I believe I was a witch in a past life but that was a long time ago...
I have Scottish, Irish, Algonquin Indian and Japanese blood so I'm sure I have magic in my family. I have had waking 'dreams' of past lives as well as dreams of things that will happen sometimes weeks or months before they happen.
I have for a while been drawn to healing magick but have little confidence to pursue it. My parents were Shiatsu therapists when I was younger and I learned by watching. My mother is a nutritionist and I have learned by listening but actually pursuing it...
I have little confidence and I rarely do anything for myself. I tend to self-sabotage but I will sacrifice myself for those I care about even if I can't stand them at the time.
I am a study of contradictions...
I have been doing research in various traditions and due to my sexuality I am even more nervous about finding a spiritual home. I have always felt uncomfortable with Christians especially considering my sexuality. I want find a place I fit in, a place where I am accepted...
I don't and can't in good conscience suppress my true self to fit in the stringent mold my family expects me to be. I am worried about their reaction...especially my brother who shouldn't be condemning me for things because we have more in common then he would like to admit.
I am terrified of conflict and I try to avoid it all cost...
Any advice?
I was raised Christian and was taught that to believe in anyone else was sinful.
I came out to my family as a lesbian two years back and I worry about causing more conflict. I want to be true to myself especially since I have been have been feeling the presence of at least one particular goddess in my life very recently. I worry about offending her and being untrue to myself seems a worse 'sin' then turning from the faith of my family.
I believe I was a witch in a past life but that was a long time ago...
I have Scottish, Irish, Algonquin Indian and Japanese blood so I'm sure I have magic in my family. I have had waking 'dreams' of past lives as well as dreams of things that will happen sometimes weeks or months before they happen.
I have for a while been drawn to healing magick but have little confidence to pursue it. My parents were Shiatsu therapists when I was younger and I learned by watching. My mother is a nutritionist and I have learned by listening but actually pursuing it...
I have little confidence and I rarely do anything for myself. I tend to self-sabotage but I will sacrifice myself for those I care about even if I can't stand them at the time.
I am a study of contradictions...
I have been doing research in various traditions and due to my sexuality I am even more nervous about finding a spiritual home. I have always felt uncomfortable with Christians especially considering my sexuality. I want find a place I fit in, a place where I am accepted...
I don't and can't in good conscience suppress my true self to fit in the stringent mold my family expects me to be. I am worried about their reaction...especially my brother who shouldn't be condemning me for things because we have more in common then he would like to admit.
I am terrified of conflict and I try to avoid it all cost...
Any advice?