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Turbulent week so far. Monday I had a fight with M. over absolutely nothing except all the issues we avoid talking about, that had me violently kicking things and hysterically crying in our kitchen for half an hour. It's weird. Much of the time I'm so unemotional that I think there must be something wrong with me, and then I blow up and lose it completely, and I mean completely, over stuff that is, essentially, objectively speaking, inconsequential. I guess there is something wrong with me.
Came home that evening, exhausted, completely drained, and thought, there goes my new-found bout of spring energy, and why do I always have to sabotage myself like this, but surprisingly enough I was pretty fine again by Tuesday. Today I finally got my bike repaired, which I hadn't used since the accident, and also completed the application for a two week intensive Russian course in Eisenstadt this July. (There goes my summer holiday... *tiny sigh* ) It's a bit of a cowardly solution, really, because I'm simply too scared to try out my insufficient Russian skills in Russia at this point, but I imagine that twelve days of seven hours Russian daily will make a difference regardless. How I'll cope with having to go back to work immediately afterwards is another question, of course.
I've been so utterly paranoid about getting spoiled for Miracle Day that I avoided pretty much everything, so that so far S4 has been a kind of Schroedinger's cat for me, not quite real, neither here nor there, but elisi pointed me towards the promo picture, and between that and the trailer and the hints about the theme I'm starting to get really excited. That said, if the picture is any indication, this probably isn't going to be happy fun times. I do like the a bit older, worn Jack though. (Of course I'll be stuck in Eisenstadt studying Russian for the second and third episode...)
Came home that evening, exhausted, completely drained, and thought, there goes my new-found bout of spring energy, and why do I always have to sabotage myself like this, but surprisingly enough I was pretty fine again by Tuesday. Today I finally got my bike repaired, which I hadn't used since the accident, and also completed the application for a two week intensive Russian course in Eisenstadt this July. (There goes my summer holiday... *tiny sigh* ) It's a bit of a cowardly solution, really, because I'm simply too scared to try out my insufficient Russian skills in Russia at this point, but I imagine that twelve days of seven hours Russian daily will make a difference regardless. How I'll cope with having to go back to work immediately afterwards is another question, of course.
I've been so utterly paranoid about getting spoiled for Miracle Day that I avoided pretty much everything, so that so far S4 has been a kind of Schroedinger's cat for me, not quite real, neither here nor there, but elisi pointed me towards the promo picture, and between that and the trailer and the hints about the theme I'm starting to get really excited. That said, if the picture is any indication, this probably isn't going to be happy fun times. I do like the a bit older, worn Jack though. (Of course I'll be stuck in Eisenstadt studying Russian for the second and third episode...)