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[solitary_ground]

I really hate the world demon. I know that it's all official and stuff but it makes me feel like I must be a bad person and so I've decided I'm just not going to use it. I don't want to be a demon. Demon is just way too associated with evil to me. So I spent a few hours today googling after my counselling session trying to seeing if I could find a

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[slinkster_ghoul]

Wow, you are SO Deirdre's sister with the TMI and everything.

[solitary_ground]

Sorry! I just sort of talk before thinking and you'd think with typing I'd go back and edit it all but then this post would probably just be really short.

I feel like all this stuff might be better said than all trapped in my head too. By showing people how crazy I am it makes me feel a little bit less crazy kinda.

[slinkster_ghoul]

Nah, it's cool. Well, knowing that you wanna kill people sometimes is less than cool, but a lotta my friends have been through that, and okay, a lot of the time I wanna kill people as well, though I don't have the superstrength or anything, I kinda get the anger issues. I remember I thought I was a demon once, but yeah, I'm not.

I don't think you're 'crazy', either. Not any more than anyone else.

[solitary_ground]

I kinda get the anger issues. I remember I thought I was a demon once, but yeah, I'm not.

We're you relieved or disappointed? I feel like if that was my situation I'd be all both because finding out I was like this was like "Wow, okay, there's a reason I almost killed my mother even though I love her" and then on the other hand it's kind of like I hate the idea that I'm different like this because everything I planned for my life has been messed up.

Deirdre says I'm not going to get much older looking and I can't even imagine that! I mean, what happens when I want to get married and have kids? I'm going to look like a twenty year old when I'm taking them to high school. I just feel like this whole immortal thing is going to get REALLY complicated.

I think I'd be less tetchy if I could work out how my wings work though.

[slinkster_ghoul]

I think I was mostly dissapointed, cos it meant all my issues were just ME (I kinda threatened my mother with a hammer once before I left home for good, I mean, got kicked out) and it meant I didn't get to fly or anything. Probably better for the world at large that I'm NOT a demon, although it woulda saved me from a lot of shit too. I dunno.

You could try jumping off something really high and seeing if your wings popped then?

[solitary_ground]

Hmmm, everything is so complicated. People have crazy heads.

Does that usually work? I'd have to get Peter to let me out of the locked room, maybe on a leash or something.

[slinkster_ghoul]

They really really do. But that's life, and mostly it's okay.

I dunno, it might work! You'd probably be okay out if you had some of the demony staff with you (and you know, it really helps that you don't WANT to run away) and they could probably even catch you if your wings don't pop, so you don't have to hit the ground or anything.

[solitary_ground]

I will ask Peter about it tomorrow!