Can't Sleep
..the dinner and a movie was a lot of fun..i really like hanging out w/ emma she's really cool and were pretty similar..
..i get home..and start to hate life..
..i'm so depressed all of a sudden and this feeling of emptiness is so familiar..i hate it..haven't felt like this since leaving wisconsin..
..something pointless i realized..is u always end up falling for ur best friend..because u figure hey idc what they think of me i can be myself and b totally free around them..and thats what they'll fall for..who you are around them..urself..idk where i'm going w/ this i'm rambling on..just one of my friends best guy friends is falling for her..
..a good test to see if ur over an ex or past crush is to have a deep convo w/ them and hang out w/ them again..one of my ex bfs and i had a deep convo and he told me he still loved me..he was kidding of course..but wen he told me that..i felt nothing,it had no effect on me what so ever..and i liked not feeling nething..not caring..but it's not like that for all guyz..
..but because i'm an idiot i hurt someone tonite and i feel like shit..cuz ik what its like..i've done this b4 but yet i do it again..wtf is my problem?
..i'm so depressed right now it's crazy..
..on the fone w/ the company shirt guy..i love him to death..
..gnite..
<3 stine bean
..i get home..and start to hate life..
..i'm so depressed all of a sudden and this feeling of emptiness is so familiar..i hate it..haven't felt like this since leaving wisconsin..
..something pointless i realized..is u always end up falling for ur best friend..because u figure hey idc what they think of me i can be myself and b totally free around them..and thats what they'll fall for..who you are around them..urself..idk where i'm going w/ this i'm rambling on..just one of my friends best guy friends is falling for her..
..a good test to see if ur over an ex or past crush is to have a deep convo w/ them and hang out w/ them again..one of my ex bfs and i had a deep convo and he told me he still loved me..he was kidding of course..but wen he told me that..i felt nothing,it had no effect on me what so ever..and i liked not feeling nething..not caring..but it's not like that for all guyz..
..but because i'm an idiot i hurt someone tonite and i feel like shit..cuz ik what its like..i've done this b4 but yet i do it again..wtf is my problem?
..i'm so depressed right now it's crazy..
..on the fone w/ the company shirt guy..i love him to death..
..gnite..
<3 stine bean