I just don't know how much more I can tolerate
Changes..everyone is going thru these life altering changes around me, and all I see is a blur. How am I supposed to do this? How can my children expect me to hold their troubles on my shoulders? How long can Jim expect me to go thru these job changes with him, and expect me to sit on my ass all day waiting for the next kick in the ass? I really hurt today. I mean I really hurt. My insides are just shutting down from the overwhelming changes. My life consists of being an emotional revolving door. And things NEVER get better. No matter how many times I've been told by Jim that financial things will get better...that we will be able to vacation one day, that he has this hobby to deal with, that he has a meeting of the ham club one nite, a meeting with the "Wood chucks" or what ever they call adult scouts...then the regular boyscouts..then the computer...then then then then..zoom...I'm left in the middle of the floor spinning from all his comming and going. I can't take much more. I need someone to touch me look me in the eye and say "This is what I promise to you...I promise to be here when you need me...I promise to put you FIRST on my list. using the car is NOT OFF limits because of the price of gas." And I just can't adjust to any of this. WHat now what now what now? STOP