it's how the game is played
somewhat, i think it'll be okay. something keeps telling me that i'll make it through... something that says i can pick my life for me. my life goal is to look back and say that i did what i could with what i knew. no one cares what i think. it hurts. ppl say they do, but guys, you probably don't lay there in bed and think about me. I'm hurt when ppl can have fun when i'm not there. i'm sick that ppl get too lazy to read any of this. or care for even that matter. i don't want to go to college. i want to go home. i want
to lay on my white bed in my white room of my white house, and awake to the sun. not an alarm.
i lied, and i couldn't say no.
why is having money everyones' dream? i hate money. i hate college. I HATE SCHOOL. this is not my dream, to live in someone else's dream. I don't WANT your fucking money. I want to feel happy. not be crammed with stress, because I can't take it like the rest of you can. I have a life, i go to school isn't that enough. why do i have to wake up everyday saying 'maybe i can call off today' or 'maybe i'll have to go to the hospital and i can miss school'...
i always wished someone would linger on my every word, and go 'wow'
i wish that people wouldn't have to show off what they are.
modesty is admired by me. if you have to highlight the good, is it truly the good you're working for? or is it the attention?
you want a vacation? it doesn't matter. when you come back it'll be the same. or for me atleast, and it's the furthest time from another vacation and so the wait begins again.
i remember my health teacher saying something about our society being competetive. and that you can't relax. it's not set up for you to relax. I'M GOING TO RELAX!!!!
i don't want to be part of this society.
i hate these ppl and their egos and their taking things.
their morals not their own. they build maturity upon ignorance. It's JUST So WrOnG to me!!!!!
JUst fucKing STOP
you say you're here for me
you are, i know that
responsiblity is only yours if you accept it.
there's always something
ALWAYS
to lay on my white bed in my white room of my white house, and awake to the sun. not an alarm.
i lied, and i couldn't say no.
why is having money everyones' dream? i hate money. i hate college. I HATE SCHOOL. this is not my dream, to live in someone else's dream. I don't WANT your fucking money. I want to feel happy. not be crammed with stress, because I can't take it like the rest of you can. I have a life, i go to school isn't that enough. why do i have to wake up everyday saying 'maybe i can call off today' or 'maybe i'll have to go to the hospital and i can miss school'...
i always wished someone would linger on my every word, and go 'wow'
i wish that people wouldn't have to show off what they are.
modesty is admired by me. if you have to highlight the good, is it truly the good you're working for? or is it the attention?
you want a vacation? it doesn't matter. when you come back it'll be the same. or for me atleast, and it's the furthest time from another vacation and so the wait begins again.
i remember my health teacher saying something about our society being competetive. and that you can't relax. it's not set up for you to relax. I'M GOING TO RELAX!!!!
i don't want to be part of this society.
i hate these ppl and their egos and their taking things.
their morals not their own. they build maturity upon ignorance. It's JUST So WrOnG to me!!!!!
JUst fucKing STOP
you say you're here for me
you are, i know that
responsiblity is only yours if you accept it.
there's always something
ALWAYS