paaaaaaranoia
REASONS THAT I AM NOT BEING IGNORED BY MY ONTD_AI FRIEND BECAUSE I'M ANNOYING:
1) Because, even though she said that she'd reply to my messages as soon as possible, she could have forgotten, and that's why I now see her in the OT post (yeah, I lurk, sue me. She's been there since the first page).
2) Because she could be replying to me right this second, and is just splitting her attention by talking with everyone in the OT post which, hey, I've done before....although she has been in there for a while....
3) Because she shouldn't be obligated to respond to me the SECOND she's free, I mean, it doesn't make her a bad person just because she'd rather talk to other people even though she said that she would message me, who really wants to sit down and write long messages the second they get a free minute, really?
4) She......
:(
Fuck, I probably made her hate me. Shit, shit, shit, shit.
No, but she's so nice...she seemed like she really cared, she went out of her way....and....
I mean, logically speaking, I wouldn't want to respond to my longass and near-pointless messages either....but she said that she was going to as soon as she could, and then I see her hanging out in OT... and now I'm being overly critical, she is allowed to change her plans and do whatever the fuck she wants to do, right? And, really, this is all my fault, she didn't know that I'd be lurking OT, I mean, I'm technically not ~in the community right now, I just miss everyone. So, it's not her fault, she didn't even know I was going to be in there.
Oh, good job, Talia, posting entries like this is why less and less people are talking to you, grrrrrr aaaarrrrgh.
/vent
DO I HAVE FUCKING TRUST ISSUES OR WHAT, TELL ME TO CALM THE FUCK DOWN.
*sigh*
I will not eat emotionally over this. Bad, bad, bad.
Okay.
Done now.
1) Because, even though she said that she'd reply to my messages as soon as possible, she could have forgotten, and that's why I now see her in the OT post (yeah, I lurk, sue me. She's been there since the first page).
2) Because she could be replying to me right this second, and is just splitting her attention by talking with everyone in the OT post which, hey, I've done before....although she has been in there for a while....
3) Because she shouldn't be obligated to respond to me the SECOND she's free, I mean, it doesn't make her a bad person just because she'd rather talk to other people even though she said that she would message me, who really wants to sit down and write long messages the second they get a free minute, really?
4) She......
:(
Fuck, I probably made her hate me. Shit, shit, shit, shit.
No, but she's so nice...she seemed like she really cared, she went out of her way....and....
I mean, logically speaking, I wouldn't want to respond to my longass and near-pointless messages either....but she said that she was going to as soon as she could, and then I see her hanging out in OT... and now I'm being overly critical, she is allowed to change her plans and do whatever the fuck she wants to do, right? And, really, this is all my fault, she didn't know that I'd be lurking OT, I mean, I'm technically not ~in the community right now, I just miss everyone. So, it's not her fault, she didn't even know I was going to be in there.
Oh, good job, Talia, posting entries like this is why less and less people are talking to you, grrrrrr aaaarrrrgh.
/vent
DO I HAVE FUCKING TRUST ISSUES OR WHAT, TELL ME TO CALM THE FUCK DOWN.
*sigh*
I will not eat emotionally over this. Bad, bad, bad.
Okay.
Done now.