Update on life so far ...
Made it through my first week and a half back at work. I was off at noon everyday and I really appreciated it! My med doctor wanted me to try 6-hour shifts next week, so I'll be off at 2pm next week. If I handle that I'll be back to work full-time the week after.
I need to acknowledge my dad and my memory of him, and quit stuffing feelings beneath the surface, so I can grieve. That's my assignment from my med doc.I'm going to try by posting little entries with memories and thoughts I have about him when I get a chance to. There was so much more to him than I ever realize. I only knew him as "Dad" and I had no idea what kind of a thoughtful, intelligent person he was. He actually did work on the space shuttle Challenger at NASA for one thing! I wish I knew that ... I wish I thought to actually TALK to him about his life when he was alive. I feel like I missed out on so much and I'm struggling with the urge to beat myself up for that.
Well,micaturtleand I are going to head over to our friend Mandy's house to have a party and watch the newest incarnation of TMNT on Nickelodeon. I've been anxiously waiting all day, and I hope I won't hate it. I'm already starting to go nuts and buy Ninja Turtles stuff when I see it at the store, and I want to continue squeeing and getting excited about all the cool things I'm seeing! *Prays to the Deitys of T.V.* Pleasebegood pleasebegood please please please ...
I need to acknowledge my dad and my memory of him, and quit stuffing feelings beneath the surface, so I can grieve. That's my assignment from my med doc.I'm going to try by posting little entries with memories and thoughts I have about him when I get a chance to. There was so much more to him than I ever realize. I only knew him as "Dad" and I had no idea what kind of a thoughtful, intelligent person he was. He actually did work on the space shuttle Challenger at NASA for one thing! I wish I knew that ... I wish I thought to actually TALK to him about his life when he was alive. I feel like I missed out on so much and I'm struggling with the urge to beat myself up for that.
Well,micaturtleand I are going to head over to our friend Mandy's house to have a party and watch the newest incarnation of TMNT on Nickelodeon. I've been anxiously waiting all day, and I hope I won't hate it. I'm already starting to go nuts and buy Ninja Turtles stuff when I see it at the store, and I want to continue squeeing and getting excited about all the cool things I'm seeing! *Prays to the Deitys of T.V.* Pleasebegood pleasebegood please please please ...