i make everything bad
school was ok i felted happy ......then gettin back to the real world not a big deal there really either i tried callin andy to find out where the other ABS house is, i think i called him kinda late and it might had already started. its strange how i look at things and my approach with people....i mean if i have to talk to someone like andy i really wish i could tell him exacty whats going on but im ashamed about stuff i have done in the past, i guess its a pride thing, and besides when he does have the time to talk to me i wont talk ahhhh lol.
yea i retook my math modles test yay....god i really hate math soo much its not even funny.
whats scarin me is that i can feel my old feelings coming back ive gotten rid of them since 10 grade....makes sence cant be happy forever.
like 9th grade i woundlt talk to people then 10th grade i was like fuck it , ive always kepted this sayin in my head "taking chances , magic happens" por ex. if some guy i didnt really know called me and asked to hang out usllay i wouldnt go caues i dont know the guy but now i go and hang out i guess to understand people lol my whole life is just one big blur ....
i hate the way i am , i hate the way i feel, i hate the way i look ....i fuckin hate everything most of the time i dont know why in the hell talk to me . ive tried not talking today i felt it was ponitless but i cant , inside i know it makes me happyier to have communtication with other people...to know they are okay really like 4 people asked me today whats wrong...of coruse i said nothing ....i didnt wanna go into owhat i didnt not understand. i felt it was ponitless. i know a couple of people that are sick of me bitchin anyway so it doesnt matter well its 9:32 i need to take a shower and put another fuckin mask for school tommrow , later
yea i retook my math modles test yay....god i really hate math soo much its not even funny.
whats scarin me is that i can feel my old feelings coming back ive gotten rid of them since 10 grade....makes sence cant be happy forever.
like 9th grade i woundlt talk to people then 10th grade i was like fuck it , ive always kepted this sayin in my head "taking chances , magic happens" por ex. if some guy i didnt really know called me and asked to hang out usllay i wouldnt go caues i dont know the guy but now i go and hang out i guess to understand people lol my whole life is just one big blur ....
i hate the way i am , i hate the way i feel, i hate the way i look ....i fuckin hate everything most of the time i dont know why in the hell talk to me . ive tried not talking today i felt it was ponitless but i cant , inside i know it makes me happyier to have communtication with other people...to know they are okay really like 4 people asked me today whats wrong...of coruse i said nothing ....i didnt wanna go into owhat i didnt not understand. i felt it was ponitless. i know a couple of people that are sick of me bitchin anyway so it doesnt matter well its 9:32 i need to take a shower and put another fuckin mask for school tommrow , later