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I think it's sad that it's been almost two full months since I've last written any kind of update into this silly blog and I can't say that anything of note has happened. Well, maybe a few things anyway...
1. Part-time Panera job
2. State of Red
3. Busted shoulder
And... that's all...
There are several things I'd mention that happened, but nothing really long-lasting. LSA Senior Prom came and went rather quickly. I've been burning illegal, pirated CD's like crazy lately (System of A Down, Limp Bizkit, Mastodon, Finch). The ECW One Night Stand PPV was quite possibly one of the best shows I've seen in my eleven years of watching wrestling. I've also been not-so-miserable lately, but like everything else, that comes and goes.
Driving is so incredibly frustrating. I was pulling into my driveway a few nights (mornings) ago, and some asswipe decided it'd be cool to speed up from behind me and pass me on the right... as I was making a right-hand turn. Now, every time I come home late at night, I'm going to be so paranoid. I don't know if I even feel like driving anymore.
I don't know why I was in such a bad mood yesterday. It wasn't one big thing... it was a bunch of little things. A lot of old troubles just pile up and get in my head and piss me off. I wish there was someone I could talk to, someone who'd listen and not judge me or be affected by the things I say. Well, there are a lot of people who I consider myself able to do that with (y'all know who you are, no need for name-dropping), but maybe it's just that now, for whatever reason, I feel like I can't talk to them. I don't expect people to come to me to find out what it is, but at the same time, I just wish I had the balls to speak up for once.
Defenseless. That's the word. That's totally how it's been going down lately. And not just defenseless... stepped on, ignored, abused. It's just my mind I guess. I can't even verbalize.
I guess my "point" is that there's something that I need to clear up, and typing it out is "step 1" for me: admitting the problem.
I'm sure that now, step 2 will come soon...
1. Part-time Panera job
2. State of Red
3. Busted shoulder
And... that's all...
There are several things I'd mention that happened, but nothing really long-lasting. LSA Senior Prom came and went rather quickly. I've been burning illegal, pirated CD's like crazy lately (System of A Down, Limp Bizkit, Mastodon, Finch). The ECW One Night Stand PPV was quite possibly one of the best shows I've seen in my eleven years of watching wrestling. I've also been not-so-miserable lately, but like everything else, that comes and goes.
Driving is so incredibly frustrating. I was pulling into my driveway a few nights (mornings) ago, and some asswipe decided it'd be cool to speed up from behind me and pass me on the right... as I was making a right-hand turn. Now, every time I come home late at night, I'm going to be so paranoid. I don't know if I even feel like driving anymore.
I don't know why I was in such a bad mood yesterday. It wasn't one big thing... it was a bunch of little things. A lot of old troubles just pile up and get in my head and piss me off. I wish there was someone I could talk to, someone who'd listen and not judge me or be affected by the things I say. Well, there are a lot of people who I consider myself able to do that with (y'all know who you are, no need for name-dropping), but maybe it's just that now, for whatever reason, I feel like I can't talk to them. I don't expect people to come to me to find out what it is, but at the same time, I just wish I had the balls to speak up for once.
Defenseless. That's the word. That's totally how it's been going down lately. And not just defenseless... stepped on, ignored, abused. It's just my mind I guess. I can't even verbalize.
I guess my "point" is that there's something that I need to clear up, and typing it out is "step 1" for me: admitting the problem.
I'm sure that now, step 2 will come soon...